Chapter 1 CHAPTER 1 62 Days without Rain Wednesday, May 15 5:30 p.m. Precipitation: Zero They raised the car from the lake on the same day as my father''s memorial, two unrelated but equally newsworthy events: Something lost. Something found. My father had been gone for over three weeks, and in the days since, I''d found myself measuring time differently. A recalibration. A new reality. I listened to the weather reports each morning on the radio in Charlotte-- sixty-two days without rain --and thought, instead, Twenty-three days without him.

It seemed like half the town had come out for the celebration of life--crowding the deck of his favorite restaurant, raising a glass (or two, or three) to the portrait of Detective Perry Holt--while the other half was gathered around an inlet on the opposite side of Mirror Lake, watching as the salvage company hooked a crane to the car that had been spotted below the surface a few days earlier. All I could think was: Of course this is happening now. I''d always suspected that my father alone had held things together by sheer force of will--not only in our family but in the entire town. And without his careful gaze, his steady oversight, everything had shifted off-kilter. Even for this, he had left us his guidance. A cremation instead of a burial. A party instead of a funeral. Food covered by the department.

Drinks on him. But the discovery of the car was big news in a small town, and no one had seemed sure what to do, with the outside world watching. It had made headlines all the way in Charlotte, even: the water level of Mirror Lake had dropped to the lowest it had been in decades, and a fisherman had practically run up on top of the sunken vehicle. There was no evidence of a crash--no bent metal or crushed vegetation at the curve of road above the inlet--so the rumor spreading through the crowd was that the old rusted sedan must''ve been there for years, before the addition of the new guardrail. Apparently, a dive crew had been out to inspect the car the day it was found, but saw nothing inside. And yet, it had the air of something I couldn''t quite put my finger on: a sign of things emerging, changing. A warning, that things were beginning here too. There was something in the air, keeping everyone on edge: a buzzing of insects in the muddy puddles beneath the deck; the setting sun glaring sharply off the surface of the water, so we had to squint just to look at one another; leaves, dry and brittle and churned up in the wind, falling to earth at the wrong time of year.

This wasn''t how things were supposed to go. There were supposed to be stories on the mic set up beside the bar, for anyone who felt moved to speak. We were supposed to find solace in the liquor, and the laughter--a release, an acceptance. Perry Holt was gone too soon, and it wasn''t fair, but my god, what a life he had lived. So many people here attributed their lives to him. Whether he''d pulled them out of danger, or pushed them toward the help he knew they needed--today, we were supposed to remember it all. But now news of the car was splitting everyone''s attention and sense of responsibility and propriety. For every comment of He was such a good man, a good leader, a good role model booming from the sound system, there was a quieter whisper carried in the crowd around me.

It''s coming up. No license plate. No VIN. Stolen and dumped, probably. While the youngest Murphy girl--now a few years out of high school--told the story of how my father found her drifting in the middle of the lake as a kid, her tube cut loose from the dock, I heard the group to my side taking bets on what they''d find inside the trunk. A body. Stolen goods. A gun.

I turned to stare, hoping to shame them into silence, but they were looking toward the entrance instead, where a group of uniformed officers had gathered in the doorway. It didn''t help that a lot of the people here were presently or formerly connected to law enforcement, either by profession or family ties. Or that men and women in uniform kept rotating in, alternating between paying their respects and relaying updates to my brothers. Both of whom had suddenly disappeared again. I didn''t blame them. I was pretty sure I''d find them on the long sliver of deck at the side of the building--the only reprieve from the crowd. I saw Caden first, pacing back and forth, all frenetic energy. He paused periodically to hold his phone out over the water, trying to catch a signal.

Any other day, he''d be out there himself. He''d been the very first on scene; the call about the car came in while he was working his normal shift on lake patrol. Gage, meanwhile, remained perfectly still, arms resting on the wooden railing as he stared out at the water. From a distance, he looked so much like our father it stopped my heart: sharp nose, prominent jaw, dark cropped hair. Heavy slanted eyebrows that gave everything he said an air of gravity. I slid up beside him, mirroring his posture. How many years had I mimicked him, idolized him, revered him as the hero of my youth? He let me follow him around far longer than most older brothers might, and I relished his praise: Hazel can climb that tree ; and Hazel will jump from that bridge ; and Hazel can beat you in a race . All I''d had to do was show up, and prove him right.

Now I tried to mirror not only his position but his emotions. Find the balance. Rise to the moment. Like our father, Gage was always the responsible one--and now he found himself in a new role not only in the department but in our family. Maybe that was the curse of being the oldest. "Are we hiding out?" I asked, as Caden''s footsteps retreated down the deck. Gage tilted his head to the side, squinting. "We''re hiding out.

" Then I could feel Caden''s footsteps getting closer again--a metronome, keeping time. He stopped pacing behind us. "Mel''s trying to send pictures. They''re not coming through." I could see the pent-up energy in his stance, though his expression remained calm, controlled. The things he could hide under his cherub-shaped face, even at twenty-seven, with the dimpled cheek, and his brown hair swooped to the side, like he was still on the cusp of adulthood. "What''s going on out there?" I asked. If anyone would be able to distinguish the facts from the rumors, it was my brothers--both of them had proudly followed our father onto the force.

Though Gage would probably be the only one to tell me. Caden and I got along best when I remembered to bite my tongue, and he remembered to ignore me. Today, we were both mostly doing our part. Gage was tall and lean-muscled, where Caden was more broad-shouldered and stocky. The only discernible features they shared were the color of their deep blue eyes and the low tenor of their voices. The Holt voice , my dad had called it, though his had turned more gravelly as he aged. "Probably some insurance scam," Gage said, dark eyebrows knitted together. "The guardrail was installed fifteen years ago.

The car must''ve been there for a while." I knew that stretch of road, right before the narrow, single-lane bridge. "It''s easy to lose control there," I said. I remembered the warning myself, from when I was learning to drive. My father''s echo: Careful. Slow it down, Hazel. It had always been a dangerous bend, especially in the night. The township of Mirror Lake didn''t believe in streetlights or painted center lines or regular pothole maintenance, it seemed.

It did believe in respecting the natural geography that had existed before, which was why the roads forked sharply, banked unevenly, rose steeply. The side roads were generally only wide enough for one vehicle at a time. Growing up here, we had learned to be both cautious and aggressive, to maneuver through tight spaces, to step on the gas before someone else did first. So driving was a dangerous activity, especially for someone from out of town. I imagined someone speeding around the bend, unfamiliar with the dark mountain curves, the dark mountain roads, tires losing traction--how quickly something could sink below the surface, unnoticed. "There was no one inside the car, Hazel," Gage answered. "They checked." "Could''ve escaped," I said.

I closed my eyes and saw it: someone clawing their way out of the vehicle as it sank. Their head finally emerging above water--that first, primal gasp. "Yeah, well, no one called it in, if so. And the plates were removed. Seems more likely it was dumped there on purpose. It''s a convenient spot." Gage was logical, pragmatic, levelheaded. All things that made him a good detective now.

It was always so easy to believe him. It made sense: here was a place no one would go looking. Caden glanced up briefly from his phone. "I can''t believe it''s been there that long. I used to jump from that spot in high school." Gage rubbed the side of his chin. "Me too," he said. I shuddered.

We had all jumped off the rocks at the edge of that curve, when the summer sun got too hot, and we were desperate for something to happen, despite the warnings from the adults. I could still feel the cold shock of that pocket of water, always.