In the Wild Light
In the Wild Light
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Author(s): Zentner, Jeff
ISBN No.: 9781524720247
Pages: 432
Year: 202108
Format: Trade Cloth (Hard Cover)
Price: $ 24.83
Status: Out Of Print

Chapter 1 The human eye can discern more shades of green than of any other color. My friend Delaney told me that. She said it''s an adaptation from when ancient humans lived in forests. Our eyes evolved that way as a survival mechanism to spot predators hiding in the vegetation. There are as many tinges of understanding as there are hues of green in a forest. Some things are easy to understand. There''s a natural logic, a clear cause and effect. Like how an engine works.


When I was eleven, my papaw pulled the engine out of his Chevy pickup and took it apart, letting me help him rebuild it. He laid the pieces out--reeking of dark oil and scorched steel--on a torn and greasy sheet, like the bones of an unearthed dinosaur. As we worked, he explained the function of each piece and what it contributed to make the engine run. It made sense, how he said it. He wasn''t sick then. Later, when he was, I understood that when he used to say Don''t nobody live forever when accepting another piece of his sister Betsy''s chess pie, that wasn''t just a phrase he used. That was when he still had an appetite. Now his appetite has moved to his lungs, which are always starved for air.


His breathing has the keening note of the wind blowing over something sharp. It''s always there, which means he has something sharp inside him. People can''t live long with sharp things in them. I understand this. Some things I understand without understanding them. Like how the Pigeon River moves and pulses like a living creature, never the same twice when I''m on it, which is as often as I can be. Or how sometimes you can stand in a quiet parking lot on a hot afternoon and perfectly envision what it would have looked like there before humankind existed. I do this often.


It brings me comfort but I don''t understand why. Other things I don''t understand at all. How Delaney Doyle''s mind works, for example. Trying to comprehend it is like trying to form a coherent thought in a dream. Every time you think you''re there, it blurs. You''ll be talking with her and she''ll abruptly disappear into herself. She''ll go to that place where the world makes sense to her. Where she sees fractals in the growth of honeysuckle bushes and elegant patterns in the seemingly aimless drift of clouds and the meandering fall of snowflakes.


Substance in the dark part of flames. Equations in the dust from moths'' wings. The logic of winds. Signs and symbols. An invisible order to the world. Complex things make sense to her and simple things don''t. She''s tried to explain how her mind functions, without success. How do you tell someone what salt tastes like? Sometimes you just know the things you know.


It''s not her fault we don''t get it. People still treat her like she''s to blame. Some aren''t okay with not understanding everything. But I''m not afraid of a world filled with mystery. It''s why I can be best friends with Delaney Doyle. Chapter 2 A carload of girls from my high school is trying to exit out the entrance of the Dairy Queen. I pause to let them. Then I pull in, my lawn mower rattling in the back of my pickup--the same truck whose engine my papaw and I rebuilt.


The early evening July sun blazes like bonfirelight on the hills behind the Dairy Queen. They''re a soft green, as if painted in watercolor. Gleaming soapsud clouds tower behind them. Delaney told me once that the mountains of East Tennessee are among the oldest in the world, but time has beaten them down. Sounds about right. Delaney stands outside, her shadow long and spindly against the side of the building. She''s wearing her work uniform--a blue baseball cap, blue polo shirt, and black pants--and holds a cup with a spoon sticking out of it. With her other hand, she twists her auburn ponytail and presses her thumb on the end, tufted like the tip of a paintbrush.


It''s one of her many nervous tics. The expression on her face is one she often has--her eyes appear ancient and able to see all things at once, unbound through time and space. It''s what I imagine God''s face looked like before summoning the world out of the ether. If God were wearing a Dairy Queen baseball cap, I guess. I''m in no hurry, so I wait, out of curiosity. It takes longer than you''d think for her to notice I''m there. "It''s fine. I had no plans for my Saturday night but waiting in the DQ parking lot," I say out my open window as she finally approaches.


I try to play it straight-faced, but I never manage with her. She gets in, giving me the cup to hold while she buckles up. "You''re late." "By like two minutes." I go to hand her back the cup. She refuses it. "That''s for you. Started melting because you were late.


Your punishment." "Based on how close you were watching for me, you were obviously deeply concerned. Oreo Blizzard?" "Your favorite." "Nice." I take a bite and study her face for a moment. "How was work?" "You smell like gasoline and cut grass. Did you know the scent of mown grass is a distress signal?" "For real?" "It''s from green leaf volatiles. They help the plant form new cells to heal faster and stop infection.


Scientists think it''s a type of chemical language between plants. So you''re covered in the liquid screams of grass you''ve massacred." "I could''ve showered off all this grass blood before picking you up, but then I''d''ve been even more late." "Didn''t say I minded," she murmurs, not making eye contact. "Plant screams smell nice." "You reek like french fries," I say, leaning toward her and taking an exaggerated whiff. "The smell of french fries? Potatoes shrieking for their babies." "I''ll slaughter some potatoes.


I don''t care." "You just gonna pretend I didn''t ask how work was?" I put my truck in gear and back out. She twists the end of her ponytail. "The Phantom Shitter struck again." "The Phantom Shitter?" "Some dude who comes in once a week or so and absolutely wrecks the men''s room. No one ever sees him come or go. We''ve even checked security tapes. It''s a pooping ghost.


" "Imagine dying and haunting the Earth and making it your mission to befoul the Sawyer Dairy Queen." "Befoul. Where''d you get that word?" "Dunno. Besides the Phantom Shitter, how was work?" "Got in trouble." "Why?" "Did an interview with NPR on my break and it went long." "Damn, Red, getting even more famous." "You too," Delaney says with an impish smile. "What?" I ask around a spoonful of Blizzard.


"I mentioned you." "Hell you did." I look at her, aghast. She smiles again. I shake my head. " ''I couldn''t have made this discovery without Cash Pruitt.'' That what you said? ''No one else on planet Earth could have paddled me out to a secret cave along the Pigeon River so I could find some bacteria--'' " "Mold." "Whatever.


" "Big difference biologically." "Fine. ''Mold that kills the nastiest bacteria.'' " "Don''t forget driving me to Nashville to show my results to Dr. Srinavasan. Said that." "Oh, right. No one else could''ve done that.


" "No one else did do that. Anyway, yeah, that''s about what I said." I wipe my hand down my face. "Lord above." "Stop being dramatic." I raise my index finger. "What''s the one thing you know about me?" "I know you asked me once if peanuts are a type of wood. No, they aren''t.


" "That I like to earn what I get." "Right. Cash Pruitt: famously a lover of earning." "So you''re out there telling people I did something without me earning it." "If it makes you happy, I still took credit for running the experiments and figuring out the mold''s antibiotic properties." I lower the visor against the sinking sun. A ray catches a crack in the windshield and illuminates it, a tiny comet. I''ve always loved when the light finds the broken spots in the world and makes them beautiful.


I glance over at Delaney. She''s turned inward, squinting her honey-colored eyes against the orange glare splashed across her pale skin, on the freckles that dot her nose and cheekbones like an atlas of stars. She brushes a stray piece of hair from her face. "Seems like you could get a better job than DQ now that you''re in the news and doing interviews on the radio," I say. "It requires no mental energy, so I can think about other stuff and get paid for it." "Your life. Wanna ride around some, then go watch Longmire with Pep?" "Can''t. Babysitting Braxton and Noah later," Delaney says.


"He''ll be bummed." "Tell him I''m sorry and next time I come I''ll tell him about gympie gympie." "The hell is that?" She always looks happiest right before she''s about to deliver some horrifying factoid about the natural world. She radiates pure joy now. "Australian shrub. Read about it last night. The leaves are covered in these little silica-tipped bristles--silica''s the stuff they make glass out of--and then these bristles deliver a neurotoxin that causes horrible pain for days, months, and even years. So if you brush up against it, the whiskers dig into your skin and the pain''ll be so intense it''ll make you puke.


" "Good Lord. That sounds like it came from.


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