Chapter 1 CHAPTER 1 KEY WEST FRIDAY, TWO WEEKS LATER Looking back on it, Scot Harvath probably shouldn''t have punched the guy. Flipped him on his ass? Sure . Put his wrist into a painful, yet harmless joint lock? Even better . But uppercut the guy so hard that he knocked him out cold? Not one of his better decisions . And therein lay the problem. Lately, Harvath seemed to be out of the good-decision-making business altogether. Forget for the moment that the other guy had it coming. A wealthy Wall Street type, he appeared to take great pleasure in verbally abusing his female companion.

The more the man had to drink, the worse it got. It was uncomfortable for everyone sitting nearby. What it wasn''t , though, was any of Harvath''s business. People got into relationships for all sorts of reasons. If she was willing to sit there and get berated by some jackass, that was her problem. At least it had been until she took off her shawl. The moment she did, everything changed. On such a warm evening, in the resort''s open-air lounge, it had seemed odd to be wearing a wrap.

Then Harvath noticed her bruises. She had tried to conceal them, but to his discerning eye they were unmistakable, running up and down both arms. Apparently, Wall Street could get rough with more than just his words. In Harvath''s book--hell, in any decent human being''s book--men who beat women were scum. Did this guy need to be taught a lesson? Absolutely . Did Harvath need to be the one doing the teaching? That was de batable . Karma would catch up with the guy eventually. It was one of those things from which you could run, but never hide.

Nevertheless, Harvath felt for the woman. Maybe it was all the cocktails he had consumed that were talking. Maybe it was the amount of personal trauma he had unsuccessfully been trying to escape. Either way, the emotional and physical pain radiating from her was undeniable. And so, when Wall Street next popped off, Harvath didn''t even think. He just reacted. Standing up, he walked over to their table. Her problem had just become his problem.

"That''s enough," he said. "Come again?" the man replied, an angry look on his face as he rose to confront Harvath. "You heard me. Leave the lady alone." "Mind your own business," Wall Street snapped, giving him a shove. That was when Harvath laid him out. It was a dramatic escalation of the situation and drew a collective gasp from the other guests. The punch could have killed him.

Or, he could have hit his head on one of the tables as he fell. A million and one things could have gone wrong. Thankfully, nothing did. And while Harvath could have made the legal case that Wall Street had made contact first, it hadn''t come to that. He wasn''t interested in involving police or pressing charges. That didn''t mean, though, that it was over. The staff at Little Palm Island Resort liked Harvath. He was a repeat customer known for his easy smile and engaging sense of humor.

But on this visit, something was off. Something had happened to him; something unsettling. He was withdrawn and quiet. A dark cloud hovered over him wherever he went. He rose early to work out, but other than that spent the rest of his time drinking, heavily. Had the resort been empty, the management might have been able to ignore his self-destructive behavior. It wasn''t empty, though. It was at full occupancy and none of the upscale clientele wanted to spend their luxury vacation watching a man drink himself to death in the bar.

Harvath didn''t care. He knew his alcohol consumption was dangerous, but after everything he had been through, all he wanted was to be released--released from the guilt, the shame, and the pain of what had happened. The real problem was that there wasn''t enough booze in the world to wash away what had happened. His wife, Lara, was dead. His mentor, Reed Carlton--a man who had become like a second father to him--was dead. And one of his dearest colleagues, Lydia Ryan--who had stepped up to helm his organization when he wouldn''t, was dead. All of them had been killed in an effort to get to him and he hadn''t been able to do a single thing to stop the carnage. With all of his training, with all of his counterterrorism and espionage experience, he should have been able to protect them.

At the very least, he should have seen the attack coming. But he hadn''t. Helpless to save them, he had been forced to watch as they were murdered. Horrific didn''t even begin to describe it. The physical torture he was subjected to afterward paled in comparison. Dragged by a foreign intelligence service back to their country for interrogation and execution, he had managed--through sheer force of will--to pull himself together long enough to orchestrate his own escape. Then, on behalf of Lara, Reed, and Lydia he had carried out his own bloody revenge. It turned out to be a devastatingly empty accomplishment.

He felt no better at the end than he had at the beginning. It gave him no pleasure; no satisfaction. In fact, it had only hollowed him out further--eating away at him like an acid--dimming the already sputtering flame of humanity that remained. Losing the people closest to him--simply because he had been doing his job--was the absolute worst-case scenario someone in his line of work could ever expect to face. It was worse than torture or even death--fates he would have gladly suffered if it meant that Lara, Reed, and Lydia could have all gone on living. Instead, he was the one expected to go on living. He would have to "soldier on," carrying the pain of their murders as well as the guilt of knowing that the deaths were his fault. And so, once he had completed his revenge, he had traveled to Little Palm Island--a place where he had found solace in the past.

This time, though, rejuvenation lay beyond his grasp. He was simply too broken; too far gone. The only comfort he could find was when he''d had so much to drink that he was simply too numb to feel anything. He would get to that point and keep going until he blacked out. Then he would get up and do it all over again. If not for his long runs in the sand and punishing swims in the ocean, he would have begun drinking at sunrise. As it was, he was still hitting the bottle well before noon. For someone with such a distinguished career; someone who had given so much in the service of others, it was no way to live.

But Harvath didn''t care about living. Not really. Not anymore. While his heart continued to pump alcohol-laden blood throughout his body, his ability to feel anything, for anyone, much less himself, was gone. He had given up. As such, he wasn''t surprised to learn that he had eventually come to the point where he had worn out his welcome at Little Palm Island. Considering his sizable bar tab, the manager had made him a deal. In exchange for cutting short his stay and departing immediately, a portion of his bill would be comped.

Harvath agreed to cut his losses and move on. Packing his things, he rode the polished motor launch back to Little Torch Key, revived his abandoned rental car, and drove until he came to the end of the road in Key West. There, in a less touristy part of town known as Bahama Village, he took the first room he found and paid for two weeks, up front, in cash. The carpet looked to be at least twenty years old--the paint even older. The whole place smelled like mold covered up with Febreze. He was a world away from the high-thread-count sheets and hibiscus-scented air of Little Palm Island. Like Icarus and his melted wings, the once "golden boy" of the U.S.

Intelligence Community had come crashing down to earth. Cracking a window, he opened his suitcase. Having served as an elite U.S. Navy SEAL, it had been drilled into him to properly maintain and stow his gear. After hanging several items in the closet and placing the rest into a battered chest of drawers, he carried the wrinkled Ziploc bag he was using as a shaving kit into the bathroom. There, he lined the contents on the shelf above the sink and stared at himself in the mirror. He looked terrible.

Though his five-foot-ten-inch body was still muscular, he had lost weight. His sandy-brown hair might have been sun-bleached and his skin tanned a deep brown, but the cheeks of his handsome face were sunken and his once sharp, glacierlike blue eyes were tired and bloodshot. If any of his friends could see him, his transformation would have been shocking. Decay was a powerful force. Once set in motion, it went quickly to work. Returning to the bedroom, he walked back over to the suitcase. There was only one item remaining--a photograph in a silver frame. It was his favorite picture of Lara.

She stood in a sundress, her long dark hair falling across her shoulders, with a glass of white wine on his dock overlooking the Potomac River in Virginia. Lara''s parents were Brazilian and she had grown up speaking both English and Portuguese. After her first husband had drowned, she said she had been plagued by a feeling known as saudade . When he asked her to translate it, she had said there wasn''t really an equivalent. In essence, it was a longing for someone or something you know you will never experience again. She had been terrified that Harvath, the first man she had loved since her husband''s death, was going to cause her to relive those feelings.