She Will Be My Creature MORE SKIN THAN FLESH, more bones than skin, the artist hunched over his easel. He added shading under the eyes and thickened the hair, then growled in disgust. It was still nothing like her, nothing like what he wanted her to be. The eyes were only wistful, not yet weak and sorrowful. The round chin looked too strong.… It would never tremble. Even the short curling silver hair looked too tidy, nothing like the unkempt locks of one given up to despair. And that is how he needed Phyllida Ash-hopeless, self-pitying, cringing, and powerless.
He tore the paper off with a flourish and fed it to his goat. "I am only half the artist my father was," he said bitterly, sketching out new lines on a fresh sheet. "True," said the goat, "but you are twice the magician." He munched on the paper contemplatively. "Perhaps if you switched to charcoal." "You just don't like the taste of ink, Pazhan," the man said. "Be glad I don't use oils. I will, though, just as soon as I can worm my way in.
Into the house, into her confidence … and into her place at last. One good sketch, and I'll have a hold on her, enough to create an opening. Then when she sits for me, when I can do a proper portrait, she will be my creature." "Will she really do as you say, Gwidion? She'll give it up, just like that?" "You've seen what I can do." "Sketches to make the innkeeper give you a free night and a full flagon. Portraits to charm some gullible young woman into leaving her loved ones to follow you … till you've had your fill. I've seen that, sure enough. But this is something else entirely.
Phyllida Ash is a strong woman, bred to her role for generations, and she has powerful protectors. She may keep the fairies in check, but do you think they don't love her?" "What of you, Pazhan? Do you love her?" He shrugged his goat shoulders. "That is neither here nor there. I am part of your family. So long as there are Thomas men, I am yours, not hers, till such time as you strike me thrice in three days." Which didn't quite answer the question, but Gwidion nodded. "My only inheritance. My father's only inheritance, and his father's before him, when it could have all been ours.
All mine." "Have I been such a bad bargain?" the goat asked archly, but Gwidion ignored him. "Soon I will come into my own. No more wandering, a penniless rover. No more living by my wits, day to day, town to town. Here is where I belong, Pazhan, here at the Rookery, at the Green Hill. Whether they like it or not, I am home." Text copyright © 2011 by Laura L.
Sullivan.