1 Williamsburg, Brooklyn, 1956 Years later, when the terrible sins-both real and imagined-they had committed against each other had separated them seemingly forever, the sisters Weiss would remember that night very differently. What really happened was this. It was a Friday night. Crowded around the enormous, dark walnut dining room table that took up the entire living room were the immediate family (except for their two eldest brothers, Abraham and Mordechai, both off learning in an upstate yeshiva), a distant cousin who had just come over from Poland, and the usual pale, eager Talmud students who changed from week to week. Shining in their Sabbath finery, everyone sat up straight waiting for the meal to begin, hungrily eyeing the two large, handmade challah loaves-kneaded personally by Rebbitzin Bracha Weiss-resting in their place of honor covered by a gold-embroidered velvet cloth so as to shield them from the insult of the wine being blessed first. Their mother, Rebbitzin Bracha Weiss, her arms filled with baby Duvid, settled Pearl, barely three, on the opposite side of the table from her in one of the big dining room chairs, although the child's feet barely reached the edge. "Really, Mameh…" their father, Rabbi Asher Weiss, remonstrated, shaking his head warningly. "You're asking for trouble.
" He was a big, heavy man with a serious paunch who dressed in the black garb of the Hassidim, although he wasn't a Hassid. But, by adopting their distinctive clothing, he felt that much closer to a holiness that secretly-and to his everlasting shame-consistently eluded him. Most importantly, he enjoyed covering himself in an outer shell that advertised to all his utter alienation from what he felt was the too-easy American lifestyle with its careless acceptance of life on earth, a life he was convinced was a heavy responsibility, a burden to be borne until he could, with thanks, relinquish it entering the World to Come. Pearl squirmed. Ever since the baby had usurped her mother's lap and arms, not to mention her crib, she had been indulging in strange outbursts of unpredictable behavior. Just the other day, she had absolutely refused to have her hair brushed and curled, compelling her exasperated mother to hold up scissors and threaten her with baldness. "I can't help it, Tateh," Rebbitzin Weiss answered, not without her own doubts. "I just can't squeeze her into that high chair anymore.
She's just too big. Besides, the baby is going to need it soon enough. She has to learn to behave herself sometime…" They both looked anxiously at Pearl. But she seemed perfectly steady, perfectly content. Walking around the table from child to child, Rabbi Weiss laid his large hands on their heads, murmuring a prayer. Rose nuzzled into them like a warm blanket of absolute love and protection: "May God make you as Rachel and Leah. May God bless you and watch over you, may His eye shine down upon you and give you peace," he whispered, his eyes closed, his heart open. When he had thus blessed all his children, changing the prayer slightly for his sons (asking that they be blessed like Ephraim and Menashe, the sons of Joseph), he slammed his open palm against the table the way a judge uses a gavel, signaling that the meal could begin.
" Shalom Aleichem, " he sang, joined by the others, a prayer bidding farewell and thanks to the angels who had accompanied the men home from their synagogue prayers. Each verse was repeated three times, making it feel interminable, especially to the children and those whose stomachs grumbled with hunger. That was followed by Eshet Chayil mi Yimtza, "who will find a virtuous wife," which sounded like a question but wasn't. Her price is far above pearls Her husband's heart trusts in her … She saved for the purchase of a field and bought it She planted a vineyard from the work of her hands. Charm is false, and beauty is worthless. A God-fearing woman is to be desired. The song in her praise momentarily distracted Bracha Weiss from her worries on whether she'd flavored the chicken soup with enough salt or added enough water to the chulent to keep it from scorching overnight on the hot plate (a sojourn necessitated by religious strictures against cooking or heating food on the Sabbath). A small, satisfied smile played around her thin lips, her tired eyes lighting up.
The young men joined in shyly, swaying slightly, their eyes closed as they imagined their future wives. As the last notes faded, Rabbi Weiss lifted the crystal decanter of red wine, pouring the thick red liquid into an ornate silver wine cup given to him on his wedding day by a rich uncle who had engraved it with his own name, lest his largesse ever be forgotten. As was the custom, it was filled until several drops overflowed, running down the sides, striping the chilled, moist silver. Balancing the cup in the center of his palm, he carefully rose. Everyone immediately followed, except Pearl. Before anyone even noticed, she'd slipped out of her seat, rushing to her father's side. * * * " BARUCH …" Rabbi Weiss said, his eyes closed in concentration, swaying slightly as he chanted. " Baruch …" Pearl repeated.
He opened his eyes, surprised, staring down at her, then eyeing the rest of the table, especially his guests. Catching the tentative smiles that moved fleetingly across their faces, he allowed himself to exhale. " ATA …" he continued nervously. " ATA …" she repeated, louder and more insistently, intent, they all soon understood, not in participating but in taking over the ceremony. The warm smiles froze. Had she been a boy, the scenario would have been quite different. Perhaps one of the men would have lifted him up onto a stool. Perhaps Rabbi Weiss would have allowed him to touch his arm, looking at him encouragingly, and everyone would have been delighted at this display of early saintliness on the part of a child so young and so eager to perform a religious obligation.
But as it was, it was viewed as a sign of bad character and, even worse, bad upbringing, a female putting herself in front of a room full of men in a wanton and naked display of desire to be the center of attention-an anathema to any truly religious girl from a truly religious family. People sucked in their breath and wondered. Immodesty and brazenness were sure signs that Gentile blood had found its way into one's veins. Red bloomed in Rabbi Weiss's pale cheeks as he sent a swift, accusing glance in his wife's direction, then looked down at the child, shaking his head in stern warning. " Adonai…" "AHH … DOUGH … NOI!" Pearl shouted, oblivious, hopping from foot to foot as she claimed the spotlight, finally grabbing for the shiny magic cup filled with its delicious elixir. With a sudden, harsh movement, her father nudged her aside. Whether she grabbed his trouser legs to keep her balance, or lost it and fell heavily against him, the sudden shift caused the cup of wine to teeter sickeningly until collapsing on its side, splashing red, sticky liquid all over Reb Weiss's elegant satin waistcoat, the white tablecloth, and, most of all, Pearl's head. The smack, swift and resounding, on her behind sent her howling around the table.
She headed not for her mother's fully occupied arms but for Rose. Pressing her small head into her six-year-old sister's stomach, her short, chubby arms embracing her fiercely, she sobbed dramatically. Rose said nothing, hugging her back with all her strength. Then, she took a cloth napkin and tried to wipe down her sister's dripping head. "It's forbidden on the Sabbath to use cloth!" her mother warned, giving her no other instructions. Obediently, Rose put down the napkin and, without being told, led Pearl off to their bedroom, where they sat holding each other, rocking to and fro. " Sha, sha shtil …" Rose whispered, until Pearl's screams softened into sobs and then hiccups. "Sticky hair!" the child moaned.
"It's Shabbos. I can't wash it. It's not allowed." "STICKY HAIR!" the child wept hysterically. "You shouldn't have bothered Tateh during kiddush. It was very naughty," Rose scolded. Pearl's cries redoubled, more indignant than pained. "Well, if you stop crying, I'll brush it for you," Rose told her, even though that too was technically not allowed on the Sabbath since it was forbidden to pull out hairs.
But the wide-toothed Sabbath comb would simply not do the trick, she realized, as she gently brushed the sticky purple knots from the long, blond strands, trying her best not to tug them too harshly. "Tell me, Mamaleh," Rose said softly, using her mother's diminutive term of endearment for them both, "what were you trying to do?" "To make kiddush and drink … the whole cup, like Tateh!" Pearl sobbed. Rose put down the brush, her large, brown, intelligent eyes serious. Then, suddenly, she smiled, a small, secret smile of understanding and collusion. "You were thirsty?" Pearl stopped crying. She nodded. "If you let me change your wet clothes, I'.