THE FIRST STORM: NOT JUST THE GROUND IS BARREN Sing, O barren, thou that didst not bear; break forth into singing, and cry aloud, thou that didst not travail with child: for more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, saith the Lord. -Isaiah 54:1 (more illogic from the Good Book) As Amy Joy Lawler waited by her mailbox, several fat flakes of snow winged softly out of the sky. She wiped them from her face but did not notice the ones that landed soundlessly on the strands of her hair and disappeared there. She stared down at the A. J. Lawler on the mailbox. The snow had already clung about the letters that spelled Sicily Lawler, the second name painted on the box. As Larry Monihan swept by with the town plow, Amy Joy Lawler stared at the lettering with interest.
It was as if some cosmic penmanship had erased her mother from the world, had wiped her out. Amy Joy stared at it as though there were meaning to the act before she slid a mitten across the letters and brought the name back to life. Sicily Lawler. The mailman was late again today. Maybe it was snowing even harder in St. Leonard. "It will be all snowflakes soon," Amy Joy thought. "Tons of it for months.
" What had she always promised herself, each year when autumn''s dead foliage bent in the wind and then broke beneath the weight of winter that would cover the Mattagash Valley for six full months? What had she dreamed of? Warmth, somewhere, and long strings of brown sand between her toes, and green-yes, green. How Amy Joy missed that color all during the time when things were white: rooftops, black spruce, automobiles, fences, the frozen river. It wasn''t that the color white bothered her really, except the town seemed drained of color, all the green seeped away. Amy Joy shivered inside her woolen coat and waited for old Simon Craft to finally nose his way around the turn in his mail car. "A bill from J. C. Penney''s," Simon said. "A card from your kin down in Portland, a wedding invitation from Tom Henley''s girl-I must''ve delivered fifty of them already today-and a flyer from the Women''s Legion Auxiliary for the Thanksgiving Day Co-op Dinner.
" With one hand holding a used handkerchief, he wiped his bulbous nose. With the other hand, he passed Amy Joy Lawler her mail. "Thanks, Simon," Amy Joy said. "What''s a Thanksgiving Day Co-op Dinner?" she asked as she studied the home computer flyer. It used to be that the Women''s Legion Auxiliary printed their flyers by hand. Technology was apparently rampant. "The Women''s Auxiliary decided to cook up a bunch of turkeys and trimmings and just have the whole town come to the gym for their Thanksgiving dinner. All for four ninety-five and no cleaning up the dishes afterward.
That''s what my better half likes most about the idea. She said she can just get up and walk away like she never even ate there. They''re gonna have all kinds of contests and prizes and even a play afterward. My two grandchildren been dressed up like little Pilgrims all week. And what money they bring in above their expenses will go to Ernie Felby''s wife." Simon sniffed a runny nose as he spoke. "She''s got all them kids, you''ll remember." "What''s wrong with Ernie?" Amy Joy flipped through the mail in her hand.
It would be nice, one day, to get mail and be surprised by the origins of it, by the senders. But Simon Craft had believed for almost forty years that the mail belonged to him, that he was kind enough to let other folks handle it, open it, read it. "I''d say a lot is wrong with him," Simon declared. "He died three months ago. Cancer." "No kidding," said Amy Joy. She had opened the card from Portland. It was from her relatives there.
How could she have, even for a second, doubted Simon''s telepathic abilities? "The Felbys might be hippies, but they still got feelings," Simon said. "And it looks like they had a bushel of friends. I bet that man got almost fifty get-well cards. One even come from England. I gave up counting." Simon waved his hand to pshaw the foolishness of having tried. "A book of stamps," said Amy Joy. "Please.
" She placed a five-dollar bill on the stack of Bangor Daily newspapers inside the car. "You need to get out more, Amy Joy," Simon said. He selected the stamps, all Jack Londons, and gave them to her. "Seems like I been harping to you almost twenty years about the bird being on the wing, as they say. Even that bird is getting old." "Thanks, Simon," said Amy Joy. "I do remember hearing about Ernie. I guess I just forgot.
" "Oh, yes," he said, and pointed a bony finger. "If you look beneath that flyer on the bottom of the stack, your electricity bill came. Probably your last low month before winter." Amy Joy looked. It was there, of course, one of Simon Craft''s children, one of his little white homing pigeons. "I got it," she said. "Thanks." She pulled her mitten back on and glared up at the sky.
It was dull gray with snow, the mountains dark whales beached on the horizon. "I better get the mail put out before this storm comes down on us full blast," Simon declared. "I don''t believe in that hail-or-sleet-or-snow slogan, you know. That was written in warmer climes. I believe in sitting out a storm." "I don''t blame you," said Amy Joy. Once, during a blizzard, he had sat out for four days. But so had everyone else.
Sometimes the world needed a little cuff on the ass from Mother Nature, a warning to slow down. "I wanna see you at that Thanksgiving dinner," Simon warned sweetly. "There''ll be lots and lots of eligible bachelors, mark my words, and four ninety-five is quite a deal." Eligible bachelors in Mattagash. Amy Joy considered this. He must mean Nolan Gifford, Oliver Hart, and Moss Fennelson. "Be still, my heart," thought Amy Joy. "The women even put up a poster at The Crossroads," Simon added.
"And you know how they feel about that place. I hear they''re trying to call an emergency town meeting to get the dry vote back. Just between you and me, I think some of them women watch 60 Minutes too much. They''re always sneaking up on an issue. But this co-op dinner ain''t a bad idea, and I think you oughta shake a leg and come down there." "I''ll see," said Amy Joy. "And remember, it''s for a good cause," Simon reminded her. "That poor woman ain''t so much as gotten a sympathy card from her folks down in Boston.
But she gets her share of bills, I can tell you that much." "I''ll try, then," said Amy Joy. "She''s still paying Cushman Funeral Home for the burial," Simon whispered, a delicious secret he saw fit to share with Amy Joy Lawler. "In that case, I''ll really try," Amy Joy lied. "Oh, by the way." Simon raised his voice again, away from the soft tones of gossip. "Did you hear that Paulie Hart won a thousand dollars in the state lottery? The lucky numbers was eighteen, twenty-two, five, seventeen, and seven. Ain''t that the luck of the Irish?" "He''s been spending over a hundred dollars a week for the past three years on tickets," said Amy Joy.
"It sounds more like the luck of the stupid." By the time Simon Craft''s tires caught the remaining tar and spun back onto the road, snow was buzzing about Amy Joy''s head in fat flakes. She watched as his taillights became bleary red eyes in the storm, then winked out. When she pivoted on her heel for the short walk back to the house, both names on the mailbox had been leveled over with snow. "I must call Conrad Gifford to come and shovel the porches," Amy Joy thought. The yard had become a sea of snow. For that she would need to call someone with a plow. Several high school boys made extra money that way, on Saturdays, with their fathers'' four-wheel drives.
Using as many of the same footprints as she could, Amy Joy followed the crooked path back to her front porch. It had been only a few hours since the first darkening of the horizon, and now nearly four inches of snow lay on Mattagash. Amy Joy stood in the doorway to her mother''s bedroom and cleared her throat a few times until Sicily came awake and said, "What? Tell me what you asked me then, and I''ll answer you." "I didn''t ask you anything," Amy Joy said. "We''d been talking and you fell asleep, so I went out for the mail." "What come?" asked Sicily. She pulled herself up a bit on shaky elbows as Amy Joy reached to help her. "Don''t," Sicily said stiffly.
"I ain''t helpless, you know, like some old piece of driftwood." Amy Joy sighed, so that Sicily would not hear. "The electric bill," she said. "J. C. Penney bill. A flyer Simon says is for a Thanksgiving Day Co-op Dinner." "I wish Simon Craft would pay our bills instead of read them," said Sicily.
"That man is a better gossip than any woman I ever knew." "And you''ve known the best," Amy Joy thought. "All gold medalists." "That all?" asked Sicily. "An invitation to Junior Ivy''s retirement party," Amy Joy said, reading. "You mean that big lug is old enough to retire?" Sicily asked. "My God, where does the time go?" "He must be just over sixty," said Amy Joy. "But with his money, I suppose he can retire whenever he wants to.
" She tossed the card onto the kitchen table. "We only hear from them people when they want a gift," said Sicily. "The last hint we got along them lines was that graduation card this spring from one of his granddaughters. I tell you, in my day, we considered ourselves lucky just to go to school. They didn''t have to give us a money order to do it." She swung her feet out of bed and her legs dangled there, too short and thin to touch the floor. "Amazing how we hear from near strangers every time there''s a graduation or a wedding or a baby born." "And not necessarily in that order," said A.