Story Problems The man with the van was called Kevin From Heaven, and he charged extra for driving all the way up to Harlem. He was stocky and hirsute, a ruff of fine gray hair sticking out of his T-shirt andcowling his bald head. He said he lived in Jersey himself, yup, heaven was just the other side of the Hudson River, he couldn''t see how anyone besides day traders and dot-commers could afford to live in the city anymore--which showed, more than anything else, how out of touch with New York he really was. The back of his van, where Claudia and I rode, was dry and hot and empty save for several blankets and nested boxes and a few dented beer cans, and whenever the van went over a bump the cans would bounce and rattle and one or the other of us would jump a little, nervously, then try to laugh it off. There were a lot of bumps between Dutch Street and 137th.      As soon as we entered her father''s house Claudia set off down the hall, but Kevin From Heaven lingered in the foyer doorway. "Shee-it," he drawled theatrically, and a long low wolf whistle gamboled down the hall like a lapdog chasing its mistress. But Kevin From Heaven surprised me with what came out of his mouth next:     "Now this is old New York.

"     At any other time, in any other place, Kevin From Heaven would have been whistling at the jiggle of Claudia''s ass beneath the clinging silver fabric of her dress, but faced with a thirtyfoot corridor off which opened "two, three, four, five, six doors" (Kevin From Heaven ticked them off on his fingers, although on the last digit he just grabbed his crotch), square footage beat round flesh hands down. The hallway''s baseboard was so scuffed it was practically black and one of the panels in the fanlight between the living and dining rooms was filled with plywood and a leak had puffed out the ceiling in Claudia''s bedroom so that it resembled an oppressively low thundercloud, but nevertheless this was the real deal. This was old New York.     I pretended to help for a few minutes, but Claudia''s method was so haphazard there wasn''t much I could do. She ran from bedroom to closet to bathroom then back to the bedroom, high heels thumping like hammerblows in her haste to beat her father back from his bridge game. Even so, her efforts couldn''t have been more inefficient. She carried one thing at a time to eleven boxes lined up in the hallway, and with each object there was a moment of contemplation as she decided which box to put it in, what belonged with what--as if, like a hostess seating a dinner party, she didn''t want to place two guests together who might not get along.     When, every once in a while, she actually filled a box, Kevin From Heaven or I would carry it down to the van, but this happened so irregularly that soon I ceded the task to him and just wandered from one  seventeenth-story window to the next.

You could see all the way down to the World Trade Center from the south exposure, all the way across to the Jersey Palisades from the west, while from the east the planes taking off from La Guardia aimed straight for the ten-foot wide oriel in the living room before arcing north or south or simply higher into the sky. The chair from which Claudia''s father took in one or another of these views had a shot cushion augmented with a rump-flat stack of pillows, and beside the chair a copper washtub, green as moss, held a mixed stack of New York Posts and Amsterdam Newses . In the dining room a brownish bit of cutwork sat in the center of a warped round table, in the foyer a Thonet coat tree had been pushed into a corner, as naked and lonely as a hanging skeleton in an anatomy lab. And I mean, sure, it was all a little Miss Havisham, but it was hardly tragic. The person who lived in the midst of this sprawling decay had obviously checked out a long time ago, so it was hard to feel sorry for him. But I could see why Claudia wanted to get the hell out of there.     At some point I found myself loitering in the hallway next to a short bookcase, its white paint tinged yellow like urine left standing in a toilet, its four shelves lined with a couple dozen books. Two of them were Bibles: a decorative volume as big as an unabridged dictionary, a smaller edition bound in zippered red vinyl.

The second Bible wasn''t actually shelved in the case but laid atop it, and it was easy to imagine Claudia''s father picking it up on his way to church every Sunday morning and returning it, unopened, to the same spot every Sunday afternoon. There were three or four children''s books, as many cookbooks. An Agatha Christie mystery whose title I didn''t recognize stood next to Martin Luther King''s Why We Can''t Wait and the same Reader''s Digest condensed edition of Nicholas and Alexandra that I read when I was sixteen and living with Aunt Clara in North Dakota. At least half the books had no name on their jacketless spines, and the entire collection was scattered in random groups of twos and threes bookended by memento boxes of plastic or inlaid wood, river stones, paperweights and other relics of an indiscriminately acquisitive life that had petered out twenty or thirty years earlier. Claudia had told me her mother left when she was twelve, a few years before her brothers died; she was thirty-two or thirty-three now, maybe thirty-four. The math didn''t add up perfectly but it didn''t have to: one box, Valentineshaped, plastic and candy-apple red, declared "You stole the key to my heart!" but when I picked up the container (although I knew it was silly, I wanted to see if my mother''s key would fit in the hole drilled through the box''s plump center) I could feel that it was in fact empty--that it wasn''t just the key to Joseph MacTeer''s heart gone missing, but the organ itself. At any rate, my mother''s key didn''t fit.     I noticed then that the heart-shaped box pinned a single thin volume against the edge of the bookcase: The Complete Poems of Gwendolyn Brook s.

When I was in high school--North Dakota, I think, Aunt Clara, or maybe I''d moved on to Lily Windglass by then--I''d read "Boy Breaking Glass." There was one line I always remembered: If not a . something. If not a note, that was it. If not a note, a hole. I reached for the book then, to read the whole poem, but as I cracked the cover the words surprised me.     They fell off the pages to the floor.     At first I thought it was the dust that furzed the book.

But no, there they were on the split grain of the parquet: a little pile of the s and bricks and freedoms and a thousand other words I couldn''t make out. The only writing left in the book was blockprinted in faint, fading pencil: Parker Macteer July 31, 1979 The rest of the pages were as bare and white as a new diary''s--or yellow, really, like all the other things that had once been white in this house. A little piddle of urine sunk to the bottom of the bowl, the issue of an old man''s weakened bladder and his age-old habit of not flushing in the middle of the night so as not to wake the members of a household that had long since moved on. Just then Claudia came out of her bedroom, fanning her face with a well-worn sheaf of papers folded tightly and giving off the air of a love letter saved and reread many times. I smiled brightly, guiltily, shielding the pile of words with one foot. Claudia smiled blankly at me, thumped down the hall.     In the living room, Kevin From Heaven read a newspaper by the light of a window whose curtain was equal parts lace and dust. A door closed at the end of the hall: Claudia, going into the bathroom.

I glanced back at Kevin From Heaven, saw that he was reading The Amsterdam News , his brows knitted together as he looked at his already estranged city through an African-American lens. I knelt down as if to retie my shoelace--never mind that I was wearing sandals. The words hadn''t scattered far, and I was able to gather them up with a few swipes of my hands. How small the stack was: a book''s worth of language fit in one palm like a few dark kernels of rice. I creased the blank book open and poured the words in and slammed the cover, stood it back on the shelf, used the heartless box to prop it closed. I wiped a couple of stray adverbs and articles off my pants, a lone magic , the suffix ible . There, I thought, no one''ll ever open this book again. And if they do, they''ll never connect its incomprehensible jumble of language with me.

They''ll just blame Parker, which is apparently what they always did.     A rustle brought my attention back to the apartment. Kevin From Heaven had folded his paper and was looking at me with a slightly nervous, slightly curious expression. I tried to imagine what I looked like to him. My eyes dropped to my hands, but they were their own indictment, each finger thin as a chicken claw, the edges smudged black from scraping dirt off the floor. Kevin From Heaven''s face settled into an expression of unfixed but palpable discomfort, and I was trying to think of something to say when Claudia emerged from the bathroom with a milk crate in her hands.     "That''s it." She wiped a sheen of sweat from her forehead.

"We''re done."     In the time it took me to stand Kevin From Heaven had dropped the newspaper and jumped from his chair as if he too had been caught out. He wiped his own forehead as he took the crate from Claudia but was still looking at me out of the corner of his eye, as if I might try to dump a pile of dust down his shirt if he turned away. "Easiest job I''ve had all.