I need to tell you everything. How they sent us to the Outlands, doomed men with a doomed task, abandoned where even the trees have gone savage. The State sent us to kill but left us to die. We could only wonder which they truly wanted.I need to tell you what happened to the twelve men with me. The pure hearts and the rotten. All condemned, most afraid. How respect and fear and hate tangled together until the threads broke, and all that was left was to close blank eyes and ask if it ended well.

I need to tell you how guilt and regret dogged me even in that place until I knew - they are a part of me and always will be. They always were. The ones I Iove bear the testament. I bear the shame.I need to tell you everything has changed.