Part I Root and Seed (19911995) a small clutch of seeds in a green-white nest what blue dreams will you hatch? Chapter 1 Meeting the Berries   Two hours before sunset, I pick up the jarring phone to hear this: "Uh, Mr. Minick? I got your blueberries on my rig." In the background, I hear the huge engine idling. "I'm sitting here in Riner and I can't see your farm. Been driving back and forth for the past hour trying to find it. Where are you?" This from an eighteen-wheel truck driver hauling our precious bushes all the way from Michigan to Virginia; this from Riner, the town that happens to be our mailing address, a one-street village twelve miles away; this from an order we placed six months earlier, sending in a whopper check from our wimpy bank account. The canceled check is the only proof that we might receive plants. Without any confirmation call, we have no idea if the shipment of 1,000 bushes will come on our preferred date of April 1, 1995.

When April 1 arrives, we answer this call and feel like fools. I tell the driver to park at the Riner convenience store, where Sarah and I meet him twenty minutes later. A round, balding man climbs down from the silver rig chewing on a toothpick. He seems friendly enough, but his shoulders sag a little when I tell him we have another 12 miles to go, away from the interstate. He explains that he has an order waiting for pickup in Atlanta, 400 miles away, by the next day. His teenage son, along for company, scoots back into the sleeping compartment. I grab the chrome and climb the three steps into the leather-upholstered cab where I ride shotgun. In the mirror I watch Sarah in our compact red car get in behind this monster-no one told us it would be a big rig.

So far below this rolling giant, Sarah looks even tinier than she is. What are we in for? I keep wondering to myself. I can't see the furrow between her brows, but I know it's there, know she is wondering the same. I direct the driver through the maze of country roads, traveling several miles on Route 8, the main artery into Floyd County, and then turning right onto Alum Ridge. We lean into the long curves on these two highways, the driver downshifting on the steep inclines, the back of the long rig crossing the yellow lines on the sharpest curves. These roads, at least, have yellow lines. "This sure is pretty country," the driver muses, but I also hear a hint of worry in his voice, his Michigan eyes used to straight roads, few hills, no mountains. All the while, between the small talk, I keep speculating where I'm going to get him and his rig to turn around.

I know where I want to unload the berries, down by the stream below the house where we can water them until I finish getting the field ready. But we're talking skinny roads, graveled when the county can afford it, traveled by the mailman and school bus, nothing bigger. And after we unload, where would we get this huge tractor trailer turned to face the other way? Another five miles and I tell him to slow for the next right onto Lester Road. This one is paved, but has no lines. He makes the wide arcing turn and I sense his worry intensify. "How far back in here do you live?" he asks. Three more miles, I tell him, hoping he'll hear the nonchalance in my voice. He is driving slowly now, his arms hugging the wide steering wheel.

Too slowly. We're heading directly into a mountain-framed sunset, but the driver doesn't notice. Then a mile down Lester, two miles from our new farm, the hardtop ends. The driver brakes hard, stopping in the loose gravel. He rolls down his window, looks around, and spits out his toothpick. He glances across the gear shift to me, then stares out the windshield before saying, "This is as far as we go." I try to convince him to drive on, knowing from our brief conversation that he's maneuvered this rig through the tight alleys of New York City. I explain that our neighbor sometimes drives his logging equipment down this dirt road, but I can tell from his steady stare that he won't budge.

At the fork in the road where Lost Bent Creek turns off, where we should be heading, the driver backs his trailer, jimmying the hind end around. In less than two minutes, he has faced the still-loaded rig the wrong way, back toward Riner. He pulls over by a wide spot on the side, looks at a grassy shoulder next to a pasture fence, and says, "Can we unload here?" It is not really a question. I tell him I don't know, but will have to check with the neighbor who lives across the road. I get out, leaving the door open to let him feel some of the cold April air. Sarah waits beside the car where I tell her the predicament. Together, we open the white picket gate to a small, neatly kept bungalow. We've never met Mrs.

Allen, but were told that her late husband plumbed our house fifteen years before we bought it. She greets us at the door, a little startled to find a tractor trailer parked in front of her house. We introduce ourselves and tell her why the truck sits there blocking her view. She nods, slowly smiles, and says that unloading there would be fine. The seeds of our dream farm, now waiting in the cavern of a trailer, will sit precariously by the side of the road, all $2,500 of them free for someone else's taking. It is our only choice. Mr. Friendly Driver has turned more businesslike; he wants to move on.

His son has already opened the trailer doors, and the driver puts on his gloves, ready to grab plants and get them off. By the dimness of overhead lights, I climb in and begin to unload. Our plants are tucked against the front end of the trailer, all neatly stacked three high, the last small part of his load. With a flashlight, I try to inspect these babies we are about to adopt, try to get a sense of their number and kind, but all I see are six-inch twigs in gallon pots of dirt. This is what I paid so much money for? In her yellow ball cap, Sarah has climbed in behind me. She takes off a glove and scratches the stem of one of these twigs. Her thumbnail fills with inner bark, the green tissue affirming the dormant life within. Then we begin searching for labels, finding a few bushes with NELSON and BLUECROP on them, but only a few.

To save money, it looks like the company has only attached the plastic bands on a fourth of the 1,000 plants, stringing together all of the unlabeled to the labeled. And given how these potted sticks are all stacked on top of each other, there is no way to count them, really, until we've unloaded. I cuss under my breath. This initial greeting between soon-to-be "parents" and twiggy "children" lasts less than two minutes. The trucker and his son already have started hauling the pots to the back of the truck, and we realize if we want to keep any order to this chaos, we'd better start hauling and organizing. Now. So we walk the fifty feet of the bed again and again, pinching the edges of black pots three in each hand, carrying all we can. On the ground, Sarah and the son carry the pots from truck bed to road bank, scurrying in the dimming light.

In all of this, we call out what labels we can read, what labels exist. We've ordered six varieties, and because of their different ripening times (early, midseason, and late), we want to keep like with like. Otherwise, we'll roam the field with our pickers, never sure of the next ready bush. I call out "Berkeley" or "Spartan" every time I can, and Sarah tries to steer the helper to the right group. The driver mentions again his next load in Georgia, so we finish quickly, try to double-check our numbers, and sign his sheet. Then we watch his rear lights glow around the bend.   What possessed two young schoolteachers to buy ninety acres of wood-land and sink all of their capital, and a lot of the bank's, into digging dirt? We ask ourselves this as we water bushes, grub tree roots, fork wet mulch. We have stellar grade point averages and degrees from respected institutions-didn't they teach us better? Not really, though what we want to learn, we realize later, isn't what they teach.

And after college graduation, we work enough in our "career" fields (business and education) to know we want something more, something else. We pursue that something else by moving to Floyd County, Virginia. Really, we move so that I can escape a job I hate, teaching high-school English in suburban Mary land. I enroll in the master's program at Radford University while Sarah begins her teaching career in a small, country elementary. When I graduate with my MA in 1991, Radford hires me on, so we decide to stay. Sarah likes her job well enough, and we both love the mountains and valleys, the rural nature of land and people, the fertile possibilities. Eventually we realize that something else we want is to stay home and pursue "the good life" like Helen and Scott Nearing, our new heroes and "preachers" of this lifestyle in their 1954 classic Living the Good Life: How to Live Sanely and Simply in a Troubled World. We want to write and make baskets, grow most of our own food, and follow a dream we call homesteading.

The farm, we hope, will allow this, and the berries will be our cash crop, our money-maker to pay taxes and other expenses. In the long run we hope our art will bring in some money as well. In the meantime, teaching will have to fund the homesteading dream. Every morning we drive our separate ways: Sarah to teach kindergarteners, and I to struggle with college freshmen and sophomores; she to wade throu.