"I had a life and it was mine. I still don't know how I got one and I fear for what happens when it's gone. But in the space between I was for sure the owner of a life. This is what happened".The memoir of one very ugly young man with no special talents. who wanted to have a special life. To travel, to take risks, create opportunities and not be afraid. The journey takes in along the way poverty in Leeds, emigration to Bermuda and South Africa, witnessing the best and worst of human nature as a psychiatric nurse, the destruction of a wife by an awful illness, and accounts of maybe thirty or so of the worst ideas ever attempted, and what his daughters ended up thinking about it all.