PROLOGUE: NOW Xander Atwood hated heights. Always had. Ever since he was a kid and chickened out of jumping off the high diving board at the community pool--much to the irritation of the kids behind him who had to make way as he climbed down the ladder, shamefaced--Xander staunchly preferred for the ground to be within easy reach. Going to the top floor of buildings was fine, as long as it wasn''t in one of those funky glass-walled elevators. Driving over bridges gave him fits. Airplanes were right out. Let others soar with the eagles; Xander was perfectly content with an ant''s-eye view. So the fact that he was leaning over the balcony railing of his parents'' apartment building, thirty floors above the street, was a very big deal.
"So," he said. "Want to talk about it?" "Not really," replied Death. 1 THE MÖBIUS STRIP Möbius Strip: a one-sided surface that is constructed from a rectangle by holding one end fixed, rotating the opposite end through 180 degrees, and joining it to the first end. --Merriam-Webster''s Dictionary A sound, like the screech of tires--or maybe the boom of a door slamming shut. Impact, then echoes of contact, then nothing. And then, a beep. And another. And again, until the beeping became an insistent shrill.
And then. XANDER Xander Atwood woke with a start. He inhaled quickly, as if he''d forgotten that he''d been holding his breath, and he swatted his alarm clock until he hit the "off" button. The shrilling beep cut off mid-shriek. Success. He exhaled slowly, then grinned. Today was the big day. He was finally going to ask Riley out.
Xander hopped out of bed and ducked into the shower. As he shampooed, he went over the plan: During fifth period, when they were both in the library for study hall, he''d casually mention that he was going to grab some pizza after school, and maybe Riley would like to join him. Okay, so maybe it wasn''t exactly a date, but it was a start. All Xander had to do was not vomit all over his sneakers, then he''d be all set. No problem. He''d be fine. Calm. Cool.
Not at all freaked out from the thought of talking to Riley Jones. His belly flipped from nerves. Maybe he shouldn''t eat breakfast, just in case. Five minutes later, he was grabbing his clothing. Definitely the royal blue t-shirt, the one that made the blue in his eyes pop. He''d heard Riley mention in passing that there''s nothing better than gorgeous eyes, so Xander wanted to play that up. His friend Ted would bust a gut if he knew that Xander was obsessing over what to wear, but hey, Ted wasn''t the one who was going to be asking Riley out for pizza. Which Xander would absolutely not be too nervous to eat.
He got dressed, then looked in the mirror and frowned at the fresh crop of pimples on his brow. Thank God for long hair. Xander busted out the gel and spent ten minutes working on his hair until he got it to that perfect style, the one that looked like he spent no time on his hair and managed to hide the zits. He could practically hear Ted''s guffaws as he told Xander that he was being such a girl. Of course Ted would say that; he never worried about anything. Ted was strictly a play-it-by-ear sort of guy, whereas Xander liked to plan his spontaneity. Could he help it if he had a thing for details? Xander glanced at the clock. He had about five minutes before he had to leave, twenty if he didn''t want to stop at Dawson''s for coffee before school.
More than enough time for him to practice his smile. Yikes--way too much tooth. He tried again. Now he looked like he was constipated. Third time was the charm. Smiling his winning smile, he launched into his Asking-Riley-Out-But-Not-Really question. After a few tries, he thought he nailed the inflection, making it sound like he was interested but not too interested. He figured Riley would answer in one of four ways.
*** SCENARIO 1: All Goes Well XANDER: Hey, Riley, I''m gonna grab some pizza after school. Want to come? RILEY: Sure! Hey--are you wearing contacts, or are your eyes really that blue? *** SCENARIO 2: Delayed Gratification XANDER: Hey, Riley, I''m gonna grab some pizza after school. Want to come? RILEY: Thanks, wish I could, but I can''t today. I''ve got track. XANDER: Maybe another time. RILEY: That would be great. Hey--are you wearing contacts, or are your eyes really that blue? *** SCENARIO 3: Could Be Worse Somehow XANDER: Hey, Riley, I''m gonna grab some pizza after school. Want to come? RILEY: No.
*** SCENARIO 4: Kill Me Now XANDER: Hey, Riley, I''m gonna grab some pizza after school. Want to come? RILEY: .Sorry, do I know you? *** He thought those possibilities covered the bases. Even though part of him was terrified that Riley would opt for either scenario 3 or 4--thus the potential for puking--the rest of him focused on having a fifty-percent chance of either scenario 1 or 2 coming to pass. Fifty-fifty: that was basically a flip of the coin. He spotted his pile of change on his nightstand, and he plucked a bright penny from the top of the heap. "Heads," he said, then tossed the coin high. He caught it, slapped it onto the back of his hand, and took a look.
Heads. He flipped it again. And again: heads. Grinning like a fool, Xander pocketed the coin. Yeah, today was the day. His lucky day. He felt it. He stuffed his backpack for the day''s classload: his evil math textbook, massive enough to be a doorstopper; his equally massive but less evil philosophy textbook, which he actually enjoyed reading; his sketchbook, along with his set of HB pencils and two erasers; his overstuffed, overworked looseleaf binder.
Finally, he plucked a novel off his nightstand--Gaiman and Pratchett''s Good Omens, which he was rereading for the gazillionth time--and jammed it into his knapsack. He grabbed his wallet, made sure he had his keys, and then he quietly headed downstairs. He took pains to avoid the creaky steps, because he didn''t want to wake his mom; she hadn''t been sleeping well since her very-pregnant belly had started entering a room before the rest of her. Xander didn''t worry about waking his dad; that man slept like the dead. Then he was out the door and on his way. The entire time he walked to Dawson''s Pizza, he played and replayed the possible scenarios of him (kinda sorta not really) asking Riley out. By the time he got to the pizzeria--open for breakfast starting at the crack of dawn--he was feeling thoroughly nauseated. What if Riley laughed at him? Or, worse: pitied him? What if the answer wasn''t just No, but Hell, No? He squeezed the lucky penny in his pocket and told himself to stop worrying.
Today was his lucky day; there was nothing to worry about. He walked into Dawson''s and waved to a handful of guys clumped around tables, but the group he was looking for was off in the corner by the window, basking in the morning spotlight. There was Ted, darkly casual, all lean good looks and radiating mischief, smiling wickedly as he tried to steal a homefry. Across from him, petite Suzie slapped his hand away and stuck out her tongue. Next to her, Izzy laughed and shook her head, her sloppy ponytail swinging across her shoulders. Xander grinned. The table changed daily, but the group was always the same: the four of them, kicking off the school day at the pizzeria. Life was good.
He bought a large coffee and a breakfast special, then headed over to join them. "Hey," he said as he slid onto the bench next to Ted. "Hey," said Ted and Izzy. "Morning, Zan," Suzie said around a yawn. "Boring you already?" "Sorry. Up all night studying. Got a Constitutional Law test, and then Debate Team after school." Xander grinned.
"I''m sure you''re gonna do great when you fall asleep in the middle of proving your point. Ow." That last was after Suzie kicked him. "That''s why I don''t study," said Izzy. "I need my rest." "You girls and your beauty sleep," Ted said, grinning big enough to blind. Izzy smiled sweetly. "Don''t make me kick your ass before breakfast.
" "You soccer girls are all so scary." "I wanna be scary," Suzie said with a pout. "Your GPA terrifies me," said Xander, sipping coffee. "Hey!" Ted flashed him a blinding grin, then he took a bite from half of Xander''s breakfast special sandwich. "He''s practicing to be a starving actor," Suzie said, glaring at Ted. "Not so starving." Xander took a bite of his remaining sandwich. "I licked the bagel on that side, by the way.
" "Knew it tasted off this morning," Ted said around a mouthful of special. "Here I thought it was because they don''t use real eggs in the egg sandwiches." Izzy snorted. "That''s what you get for eating eggs in a pizzeria." "Someone should tell management they need to do pizza for breakfast." "Egg pizza?" Suzie made a face. "Ew. Hey, nice shirt, Zan.
Makes your eyes real blue." "Thanks," Xander said happily. "Okay," Ted said. "You look like you''re about to burst into song. What''s up?" Xander grinned hugely. "Today''s the day," he said, feeling like he could fly. "I''m gonna ask Riley out." Ted, Izzy, and Suzie exchanged a look, then the three of them cracked up.
"What?" Xander said, perturbed. "I am. Really." "Even if I believed you, which, for the record, I don''t," said Suzie, "your timing is terrible." "Why?" Izzy laughed. "You really don''t know? Riley''s got mono." Xander''s heart sank to his toes. "Aw, man.
" "You''re such a bad s.