Betsey Ann Colton's holding me tight as we slow dance. He tilts my head up and lowers his lips to mine. I'm lost to him. Holding me close, his kisses are soft, slow and he's exploring my lips, wanting more. I'm melting into him and easing into the kiss. No wait. He's a friend. I cant do this I push him away and run out into the night hearing him calling after me.

What did I just do? One minute I'm celebrating my best girlfriend Paige's wedding and the next I'm kissing Colton. Him and I are best friends and tell each other almost everything. We cuddle and watch movies. We go out for dinners. We sleep together, but no sex. We just can't. I've been shattered in the past. I'm better now but my heart is still healing.

I'm not looking for another relationship. But I know Colton likes me more that a friend. I haven't told him my secret and that's the reason I cant love another man right now. Can I go there again? Love Colton and risk my heart? Can I trust him not to shatter me? Colton My heart is saying 'kiss her, kiss her' while my brain is saying 'just be friends and wait for her to be ready.' My heart is winning. I pull her closer and lower my lips to hers. I tease her lips to see what she'll do and she kisses me back. I deepen the kiss but I feel her pull away from me then she bolts out the door.

I call her name but she runs faster. What did I just do? I've ruined our friendship by pushing her. I know she's been through something in the past that makes her scared to open up to me. I'm a player. I get around with the ladies. I'm this way because of someone in my past. I've put up walls around my heart to prevent myself from getting hurt again. I'm a love 'em and leave 'em kind of guy.

But when I'm with Betsey Ann, she's a love 'em and keep 'em kind of girl. I don't want just another woman screaming my name in bed. I only want one woman in my bed for the rest of my life. I want more, so much more. Can I piece her shattered heart back together again and make her love me?.