Turning Angel Chapter 1 Some stories must wait to be told. Any writer worth his salt knows this. Sometimes you wait for events to percolate in your subconscious until a deeper truth emerges; other times you''re simply waiting for the principals to die. Sometimes it''s both. This story is like that. A man walks the straight and narrow all his life; he follows the rules, stays within the lines; then one day he makes a misstep. He crosses a line and sets in motion a chain of events that will take from him everything he has and damn him forever in the eyes of those he loves. We all sense that invisible line of demarcation, like an unspoken challenge hanging in the air.
And there is some wild thing in our natures that makes us want to cross it, that compels us with the silent insistence of evolutionary imperative to risk all for a glinting shadow. Most of us suppress that urge. Fear stops us more often than wisdom, as in most things. But some of us take that step. And in the taking, we start down a path from which it is difficult and sometimes impossible to return. Dr. Andrew Elliott is such a man. I have known Drew since he was three years old, long before he was a Rhodes scholar, before he went to medical school, before he returned to our hometown of twenty thousand souls to practice internal medicine.
And our bond runs deeper than that of most childhood friends. When I was fourteen, eleven-year-old Drew Elliott saved my life and almost lost his own in the process. We remained close friends until he graduated from medical school, and then for a long time--fifteen years, I guess--I saw him hardly at all. Much of that time I spent convicting murderers as an assistant district attorney in Houston, Texas. The rest I spent writing novels based on extraordinary cases from my career, which gave me a second life and time to spend with my family. Drew and I renewed our friendship five years ago, after my wife died and I returned to Natchez with my young daughter to try to piece my life back together. The early weeks of my return were swallowed by a whirlwind of a murder case, but as the notoriety faded, Drew was the first old friend to seek me out and make an effort to bring me into the community. He put me on the school board of our alma mater, got me into the country club, talked me into sponsoring a hot air balloon and a Metropolitan opera singer during Natchez''s annual festivals.
He worked hard at bringing this widower back to life, and with much help from Caitlin Masters, my lover for the past few years, he succeeded. All that seems a distant memory now. Yesterday Drew Elliott was a respected pillar of the community, revered by many, held up as a role model by all; today he is scorned by those who venerated him, and his life hangs in the balance. Drew was our golden boy, a paragon of everything small-town America holds to be noble, and by unwritten law the town will crucify him with a hatred equal to their betrayed love. How did Drew transform himself from hero into monster? He reached out for love, and in the reaching pulled a whole town down on top of him. Last night his legend was intact. He was sitting beside me at a table in the boardroom of St. Stephen''s Preparatory School, still handsome at forty, dark-haired, and athletic--he played football for Vanderbilt--a little gray at the temples but radiating the commanding presence of a doctor in his prime.
I see this moment as clearly as any in my life, because it''s the instant before revelation, that frozen moment in which the old world sits balanced on the edge of destruction, like a china cup teetering on the edge of a table. In a moment it will shatter into irrecoverable fragments, but for an instant it remains intact, and salvation seems possible. The boardroom windows are dark, and the silver rain that''s fallen all day is blowing horizontally now, slapping the windows with an icy rattle. We''ve crowded eleven people around the Brazilian rosewood table--six men, five women--and the air is close in the room. Drew''s clear eyes are intent on Holden Smith, the overdressed president of the St. Stephen''s school board, as we discuss the purchase of new computers for the junior high school. Like Holden and several other board members, Drew and I graduated from St. Stephen''s roughly two decades ago, and our children attend it today.
We''re part of a wave of alumni who stepped in during the city''s recent economic decline to try to rebuild the school that gave us our remarkable educations. Unlike most Mississippi private schools, which sprang up in response to forced integration in 1968, St. Stephen''s was founded as a parochial school in 1946. It did not admit its first African-American student until 1982, but the willingness was there years before that. High tuition and anxiety about being the only black child in an all-white school probably held off that landmark event for a few years. Now twenty-one black kids attend the secular St. Stephen''s, and there would be more but for the cost. Not many black families in Natchez can afford to pay five thousand dollars a year per child for education when the public school is free.
Few white families can either, when you get down to it, and fewer as the years pass. Therein lies the board''s eternal challenge: funding. At this moment Holden Smith is evangelizing for Apple computers, though the rest of the school''s network runs comfortably on cheaper IBM clones. If he ever pauses for breath, I plan to tell Holden that while I use an Apple Powerbook myself, we have to be practical on matters of cost. But before I can, the school''s secretary opens the door and raises her hand in a limp sort of wave. Her face is so pale that I fear she might be having a heart attack. Holden gives her an annoyed look. "What do you need, Theresa? We''ve got another half hour, at least.
" Like most employees of St. Stephen''s, Theresa Cook is also a school parent. "I just heard something terrible," she says, her voice cracking. "Kate Townsend is in the emergency room at St. Catherine''s Hospital. They said.she''s dead. Drowned.
Kate Townsend. Can that be right?" Holden Smith''s thin lips twist in a grimace of a smile as he tries to convince himself that this is some sort of sick prank. Kate Townsend is the star of the senior class: valedictorian, state champion in both tennis and swimming, full scholarship to Harvard next fall. She''s literally a poster child for St. Stephen''s. We even used her in a TV commercial for the school. "No," Holden says finally. "No way.
I saw Kate on the tennis court at two this afternoon." I look at my watch. It''s nearly eight now. Holden opens his mouth again but no sound emerges. As I glance at the faces around the table, I realize that a strange yet familiar numbness has gripped us all, the numbness that comes when you hear that a neighbor''s child has been shot in a predawn hunting accident, or died in a car crash on homecoming night. It occurs to me that it''s early April, and though the first breath of spring has touched the air, it''s still too cold to swim, even in Mississippi. If a high school senior drowned today, a freak accident seems the only explanation. An indoor pool, maybe? Only I can''t think of anyone who owns one.
"Exactly what did you hear and when, Theresa?" Holden asks. As if details might mitigate the horror of what is upon us. "Ann Geter called my house from the hospital." Ann Geter is an ER nurse at St. Catherine''s Hospital, and another St. Stephen''s parent. Because the school has only five hundred students, everyone literally knows everyone else. "My husband told Ann I was still up here for the meeting.
She called and told me that some fishermen found Kate wedged in the fork of a tree near where St. Catherine''s Creek washes into the Mississippi River. They thought she might be alive, so they put her in their boat and carried her to the hospital. She was naked from the waist down, Ann said." Theresa says "nekkid," but her word has the intended effect. Shock blanks the faces around the table as everyone begins to absorb the idea that this may not be a conventional accident. "Kate was bruised up pretty bad, Ann said. Like she''d been hit with something.
" "Jesus Lord," whispers Clara Jenkins, from my left. "This can''t be true. It must be somebody else." Theresa''s bottom lip begins to quiver. The secretary has always been close to the older students, especially the girls. "Ann said Kate had a tattoo on her thigh. I didn''t know about that, but I guess her mama did. Jenny Townsend identified her body just a couple of minutes ago.
" Down the table a woman sobs, and a shiver of empathy goes through me, like liquid nitrogen in my blood. Even though my daughter is only nine, I''ve nearly lost her twice, and I''ve had my share of nightmares about what Jenny Townsend just endured. "God in heaven." Holden Smith gets to his feet, looking braced for physical combat. "I''d better get over to the hospital. Is Jenny still over there?" "I imagine so," Theresa murmurs. "I just can''t believe it. Anybody in the world you could have said, and I''d have believed it before Kate.
" "Goddamn it," snaps Bill Sims, a local geologist. "It''s just not fair." "I know," Theresa agrees, as if fairness has anything to do with who is taken young and who survives to ninety-five. But then I realize she has a point. The Townsends lost a child to leukemia several years ago, before I moved back to town. I heard that was what broke up their marriage. Holden takes a cell phone from his coat.