The mind can control, and it certainly took over Anthony Hogan. For over forty-years he struggled to make sense of who he really was as the demons within his head tormented his thought process. Anthony was living with undiagnosed OCD and Complex PTSD, and these issues convinced him that he was crazy, evil, and worthless. Anthony battled with a raging condition that controlled his every thought. As a child he became certain that he was so bad that he must be the son of Satan. This story will offer the reader an insight into his world, mental issues, his violent mother, bullying peers, and his daily battles with the suicidal thoughts that almost took his life. You will discover the coping strategies (Good and bad) that he applied as a protection. Emotional and difficult to read at times, but a must for anyone with a connection to Mental Health.