"[.]very precious to me, although they have no value in themselves. "It is the ability to think such absurdities as you have read that has kept me from suicide. The will to live is no more than the hypnotism of banalities. We keep alive only by maintaining, despite our intelligence, an enthusiasm for things which are of no consequence or interest to us. "That I saw a man with a red face aroused in me a gentle curiosity lacking in words or emotion. The desire to live is compounded of Twenty-six an infinity of such gentle curiosities which remain entirely outside of reason. This never-satisfied and almost non-existent curiosity we have toward things, masquerades under the intimidating guise of the law of self-preservation.

[.]".