Chapter One When did you solve your first murder?" the reporter for the Cabot Cove High School newspaper asked me from across the table at Mara''s Luncheonette just before the noon lunch rush began. "Well," I said to wide-eyed senior Kristi Powell, who was doing a series on former teachers at the school, "that would go back to the first mystery I actually published, called-" "Mrs. Fletcher," Kristi interrupted, taking off her horn-rimmed glasses and tightening her gaze on me, "I mean in real life, not in your books. Was it here in Cabot Cove?" It''s funny, but I''m not at all reluctant to talk about the murder cases I invent. On the other hand, I''m very reluctant to discuss the actual ones, which I''d much prefer to forget the moment they end. Call it the most common proclivity among fiction writers-a preference for the worlds we create over the one in which we''re just as powerless as everyone else. Usually, I would have deflected or avoided the question altogether. But I hated to dodge an impressionable high school student, especially one who was already dreaming of a career in print.

I figured it best to set a good example for her and be the best role model I could be by remaining as honest and forthright as I could without divulging more than I was comfortable with. "No, it wasn''t in Cabot Cove." Kristi put her glasses back on and twirled a finger through some stray hair that had escaped the bun wrapped tightly atop her head-an odd way, I thought, for a high school senior to wear her hair. "Was your husband, Frank, still alive at the time?" I nodded, impressed. "You''ve done your homework, Kristi." She didn''t look to be of a mind to accept my praise. "It''s one of the first things that shows up in a Google search," she said. Having never googled myself, I wasn''t aware of how the Internet prioritized the various elements of my biography.

If I were writing that, instead of one of mystery novels, it would be painfully short, perhaps no more than a page. My actual achievements in life make for a pretty thin list, since I''ve long preferred to live vicariously through my alter ego, who''s far better at solving fictional crimes than the real me is at the occasional real-life one. "What about that first actual murder you solved, Mrs. Fletcher?" Kristi said, prodding me. Yes, she would make a very good journalist, indeed. I wondered if Kristi really needed those horn-rimmed glasses. She had the look of a young woman bursting with enthusiasm and excitement over chasing her dream through college and beyond-the kind of student who was an absolute pleasure to teach, as I recalled from my days in the classroom. She had dressed fashionably in a skirt and blouse, donning a restrained, professional appearance perhaps to make me more forthcoming with my answers.

I''ve probably done a thousand interviews over the years without such a thing ever occurring to me, perhaps because this was the first time one of those interviews had been conducted by a high school student. In any event, the ploy very nearly worked, because I almost, almost, told Kristi the truth I''d shared with extraordinarily few people over the years. "Would you believe the first real murderer I caught was my own publisher?" She looked up from her notepad. "Really?" I nodded. "And the murder happened at a party in my honor-well, in honor of the publication of my first book." "That would be The Corpse Danced at Midnight?" "It would indeed. It was a costume party with everyone coming dressed as famous characters, the brainchild of my publisher Preston Giles." "Then, he was the murderer?" "Sadly, yes," I told Kristi, elaborating no further.

"I''ll spare you the details. I just happened to be in the right place at the right time. Or the wrong place at the wrong time, depending on your perspective." "That seems to happen to you a lot, Mrs. Fletcher, especially right here in Cabot Cove." "I don''t keep a running tally." "But your publisher, Preston Giles, he was the first?" I sensed something in Kristi''s tone, an edge that hadn''t been there a moment ago. It reminded me of my own voice when I was about to spring a trap on a man or woman I was convinced had committed murder.

So I pulled back a bit, the physical space between us at a corner table in the back of Mara''s Luncheonette remaining the same, but the distance widening. "For all intents and purposes, yes," I told her, splitting hairs. "It''s all right, Mrs. Fletcher. The Eagle is only a high school newspaper, after all." Kristi seemed hesitant, then pushed herself to continue. "It''s just that the research I did turned up a death where you used to live, where you were an English teacher." "Substitute English teacher," I corrected her, for the record.

"And the town was Appleton, Maine, maybe a half-hour drive from Cabot Cove. That''s where I met my husband, Frank." "And the murder that took place there?" "You called it a death before." "But it was a murder. I mean, someone was arrested. That''s right, isn''t it?" "There was a murder, and someone was arrested, yes, Kristi." "Were you the one who caught him, Mrs. Fletcher?" I reached across the table and patted her arm.

"Who said it was a him?" I asked, smiling. "TouchZ," she said, smiling back. "Beyond that, I''m going to need to plead the Fifth." "For legal reasons?" "Personal ones. If you''ve researched me, you''re aware that you''re asking me about something I''ve never discussed publicly or in the media. With that in mind, I''d ask that we proceed to something else out of respect for those who don''t need all this dragged back into their lives. People moved on, a town moved on, and having the story dredged back up by even the Cabot Cove High School Eagle could do harm to those who, if they haven''t forgotten, have at least stopped remembering." Kristi started to make a note, then stopped.

"This would have been twenty-five years ago?" I shrugged. "That sounds about right." "And you were teaching high school at the time." "Substitute teaching," I corrected her again, "yes." She broke off a fresh corner of her blueberry muffin and chased it down with the iced tea she''d ordered with it. "This is a great muffin." "Mara, the owner this place is named for, bakes them herself using wild Maine blueberries. I''ve teased her about expanding the business to produce her baked goods on a bigger scale.

" Kristi took another bite. "That''s actually not a bad idea. Do you have any food-based mysteries, Mrs. Fletcher?" I laughed. "I leave the kitchen to other mystery writers, but I''ve done a few books where cooking plays a prominent role." "Do you enjoy cooking yourself?" "Less so as I''ve gotten older. When you live alone, it just doesn''t seem to be worth the effort as much. And I''ve been living at Hill House for the past few months while my house is being repaired.

I fear room service is going to be a tough habit to break." "Well, there''s always Grubhub," Kristi said, flashing a fresh smile. "That didn''t exist when you started your career . or when you were living in Appleton." "Clever," I complimented her, nodding. "What?" "The way you worked back to the original question, trying another way to get me to answer it." She didn''t bother denying that, but laid down her pen as if to concede my point. "Do you blame me?" "Not at all.

You''re just doing your job." "It''s only a high school paper, like I said before." "Maybe so," I told Kristi. "But you came here this afternoon better prepared, and with more challenging questions, than anyone who''s interviewed me in quite a while." "I''m sorry if I''m pushing too hard." That sudden doubt-second thoughts, so to speak-exposed Kristi''s vulnerability, reminding me that she was just a high school student. I wished I could tell her what she wanted to know, give her the scoop she was hoping for. I couldn''t, though.

Too many years had passed. Appleton might have been only twenty miles or so away as the crow flies, but for me it was another lifetime, another life. I think it was as much a matter of all that transpiring before I''d become a writer, while Frank was still alive, while we were raising our nephew Grady after his father, Frank''s brother, had been killed in an accident and his mother needed some help. Grady . He''d been a little boy when I encountered my first murderer, and I guess he was one of the people I was trying to protect by refusing to discuss that time, with Kristi Powell or any of the reporters who''d poked me about the case over the years. There were some places in my past I didn''t want to go, and this was one of them. In the silence that had settled between us, I wondered whether the real reason for my reluctance to speak about the first murder I ever solved lay in the two separate lives I''d built for myself: my life with Frank and my life after him. His death had provided the impetus for my becoming a writer, and my writing was what had too often embroiled me in very real-life mysteries.

It was as if I didn''t want my life with Frank to be at all tarnished by that mess, which meant I needed it to remain wholly separate from my life afterward to keep the memories pure. All we had shared and done together needed to be left apart and not de.