***This excerpt is from an advance uncorrected proof*** Copyright © 2016 Linda Fairstein Killer Look One "Murder trumps everything." Mike Chapman turned his back and stared out the window, talking to me but unwilling to make eye contact. "What do you mean?" I asked. Darkness had enveloped my Vineyard landscape a bit earlier each evening as November crept up on us. The late fall also brought a bone-deep chill and the threat of a serious frost. "Like you don''t know, Coop?" "Of course I do, in general. But why did you say that now, Mike? Before we have dinner. Before we get into bed.
" It was six-fifteen and I was standing at the bar, refilling my glass with ice cubes and a couple of inches of Scotch. It had been three weeks since I''d been kidnapped and held by murderous thugs, out to exercise their revenge for an old grudge. "That was the lieutenant who called," he said, turning at the sound of the cubes dropping into place. "He''s ordered me back to the city on a case. Besides, I don''t seem to be doing much here for your post- traumatic stress." I sat the glass down and let the Scotch trickle over the ice to reach a good sipping temperature while I walked to Mike, wrapping my arms around his neck. "You''re doing everything for me that I need. You know that.
" "Really? And all this time I thought it was the alcohol getting you through the night," he said. "I''m beginning to believe your view of things is that PTSD stands for Pour That Sweet Dewar''s." I let go of him and retreated to the bar. "A smack in the face instead of a kiss on my lips. Got that one loud and clear." "Then do something about it, Coop. Put the brakes on your extended cocktail hour." "Why? You''ve just announced that you''ll be leaving in the morning," I said.
"Did I get the message right? Murder trumps me , that''s for sure. My safety, my well-being, my comfort level, my--" "'' My, my, my.'' Sounding totally self-centered now, aren''t you?" Mike said. "The New York Post and the other tabloids are going to miss that I-can-nibble-on-barbed-wire-and-dance-barefoot-on-burning- coals-while-I''m-sending-those-predators-up-the-river-forever crusader for justice. That image gets benched in favor of a whining sex crimes prosecutor, who trades in her silk blouses for a strait-jacket. You''ll have the sympathy of every juror in the box." "I''m not looking for sympathy from anyone." "Alexandra Cooper, for the People," Mike said, banging his fist on the dining room table like his hand was a gavel and he was a criminal court judge.
"Tall and tough, sleek and shiny, loopy grin on her face when she ventures to smile, but she''s afraid of her own shadow now. Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, I''d advise you not to make any sudden moves cause she might freak out, and never, never frown in her direction because she takes everything very personally." "Cut it out, Mike." I took another sip of the cool Scotch. "Self-pity doesn''t become you." He walked toward me, taking the glass from me and holding my face between his hands. "And you can lose that look in your eyes, too." "Fear? You''ve always told me that fear is healthy.
" "True when you''ve got something to be afraid of. That''s all over, Coop." He pulled me against his chest and stroked my hair with his right hand. "Maybe you need to come back to New York with me. Come home." "This is my home." I bought this old farmhouse in the town of Chilmark on Martha''s Vineyard more than a dozen years ago, with my fiancé--a young doctor named Adam Nyman. When he died in a car accident on his way to our wedding weekend here, it became my refuge.
The remote location and the serenity of this hidden hilltop made it a sanctuary from the stress of my high-profile work in the Manhattan District Attorney''s Office. "You think you''re ready to go it alone?" Mike asked, rocking me gently from side to side in his long arms. "Sooner or later I have to, don''t I? Tomorrow''s as good as any other day." I had been taken hostage by a stone-cold killer and his accomplices a month ago, kept bound and sedated for several days, fed only oranges and bottles of water. "You haven''t spent a night by yourself since--" "I know exactly when." "Snap at me? Kind of like a dog biting the hand that feeds it," Mike said. "A mad dog." Once I was rescued from my abductors, the docs had kept me in the hospital for four days to examine and observe me.
I flew up here the afternoon after my release with Nina Baum--my college roommate and one of my two closest friends--who had left her husband and young son in Los Angeles to be with me for a week. When she had to go back, my other best pal, Joan Stafford, had come up from D.C. to keep watch over me. I had no secrets from either of them, and it had been so easy to confide my every thought and feeling while they tended to my fragile emotional state. I broke away and reached my arm out to grab the glass. Mike beat me to it and dumped the drink down the drain. "I''ve got a nice Sauvignon Blanc for dinner," he said.
"Take a break from the booze and let''s enjoy the fire for an hour." "Then what?" I asked. "You''ll ration me?" "Yeah. I''ll serve you out of a thimble," he said. "That way you won''t be as likely to pass out on me as you did last night." There wasn''t a better homicide detective than Mike Chapman. We had partnered on cases from the time I''d been a rookie in the DA''s Office. He had covered my back more times than I could count throughout the past decade, and he teased me mercilessly to the point at which protesting was hopeless.
Since late summer, we''d been lovers, neither one of us certain that we could make this new dynamic work for us because of the tension in the intervening weeks. Paul Battaglia, the district attorney, had told me to take off as many months as I needed to restore my sense of security. I knew, when he said it to me, that my safety wasn''t an issue. He was referring to my sanity. Everyone seemed to think I''d become unbalanced by my victimization. "I didn''t pass out, Mike. I just fell asleep." "In the middle of my best moves? Better for my ego if you go with passing out.
" I walked into the living room and stretched out on the floor, on the white rug that fronted the fireplace. Mike followed me in, placed two more logs on the fire, then lay down beside me. After Joan''s tour of duty as my keeper, the lieutenant had given Mike five days off to spend with me. I didn''t want it to end. "So what''s the case that''s taking you back to the city?" I asked, while he rubbed my bare legs. I was wearing one of his shirts, which practically covered me down to my knees. "No reason to talk about it. Nothing special.
" "There''s a dead human being involved. Unnaturally dead. Of course it''s special." "You''re off-duty, Coop," Mike said. "And until tomorrow, so am I." "So I can''t talk about murder. I''m not allowed to drink. I''m useless in bed.
What''s left?" I said, trying to make Mike laugh. "Oysters first. Then lobster. Three pounder for me and smaller one for you." "That''s my surprise? Sounds delicious." Unlike my girlfriends, Mike had tried to leave me alone in the house for a few hours each afternoon. I knew he was testing me, and it turned out I wasn''t as nervous as I feared I might be. "I''ve got to put some meat on your bones, babe.
" After Columbus Day, all the stores and restaurants on my end of the island shut down for the winter season. The year-round population wasn''t enough to support their businesses. We always bought our chowder and fried clams at the Bite, our cooked and split lobster and shucked oysters from Larsen''s Fish Market, burgers and ice cream at the Galley. But they were closed till April. "I can help you cook." "Not your best skill set, Coop. When I start the water boiling, you can bring out the dishes and silver, and light the candles," Mike said. "Then all you''ve got to do is eat.
" I hadn''t regained much of an appetite since leaving the hospital. Waves of nausea would sweep over me from time to time for no reason at all. I rolled over to get on top of Mike and shimmied my way up his chest so that I could put my mouth on his. I kissed him deep and long, then slid down onto the rug, on my back. "Glad you can still chow down, Coop. You should save some of that for the lobster tail." An hour later, after some fireplace foreplay, I spread a towel a few feet away from the hearth while Mike shucked the oysters that were fresh out of Katama Bay. "Appetizers in here," I said.
"It''s much more romantic." We both inhaled the briny oysters to a mix of Sam Smith, John Legend, and Frank Sinatra. I was saving Smokey for the bedroom. I kind of lost my way again while Mike was cooking. Not so much a function of the darkness and the wind that was picking up around the perimeter of the house and howling a bit, but the thought that tomorrow he''d be gone and I would be here alone to wrestle with my demons. My mind wasn''t on the great-looking feast that Mike had prepared, but on the bottle of wine that he opened while I plated the lobster. "Cheers, Coop," he said, clinking his glass against mine. "You''re in much better shape than you were when I put you and Nina on the plane to come up here.
" I nodded my head. If that''s what it looked like to him, then so be it. "And don''t be a hero. The minute you''re ready to come back to the city, I''ll be in charge." "I don''t want Battaglia to know, Mike. I''m not ready to go back to work." "Screw him, kid. No need for him to know your business.
" I held out my wineglass.<.