One Without tobacco, Kit knew, he would never survive Cambridge. The university would have destroyed him otherwise: the relentless pace, the always-rising stakes. One arcane lecture after another, endless pages of Greek readings that became no less bewildering with time. And beneath it all, the pervasive fear of falling behind, of falling to pieces, of publicly confirming what the fellows all privately believed: that whatever scholarship the master of the college had conferred upon him, Kit Marlowe didn''t belong here, should never have come. But once a wisp of smoke curled up in his lungs, none of that mattered. At least for the night. Tobacco unwound his nerves like a worn shirt, turned soft and loose, trailing easy threads to nowhere. It changed nothing, of course.
Kit''s presence at Corpus Christi College remained as provisional as ever, the fellows'' condescension as irritating. But as the smoke drifted between his lips and up to the ceiling, a shimmer in the setting sun, that seemed peripheral, manageable even. He settled against the bedpost with a sigh. Through the haze, his room felt more like Elysium than the half-furnished dormitory of a master''s student. Particularly given the company. Tom slouched on the other end of Kit''s bed, his back against the wall beside the window. Leaning sideways, he grasped for the dark glass bottle resting against Kit''s thigh. The movement brought him into the beam of sunlight and made his almost-silver hair shine gold.
His outstretched fingers missed his target by half an inch. "Come on," Tom said, voice strained with the stretch. "Don''t make me beg." When Kit passed the bottle over, the ends of Tom''s fingers brushed Kit''s palm, causing a momentary thrill that Kit tried hard not to think about. Tom took a healthy swallow, then grimaced and looked at Kit as if he''d been tricked into drinking piss. "God''s blood, this is terrible." Kit laughed. Tom was more right than he knew.
"You want better, you buy it," he said, letting his next drag linger. He expected Tom to resume his former slouch against the wall, now he''d realized the bottle wasn''t worth sharing, but Tom, intentionally or not, had instead moved closer. He sat with one leg bent to his chest, his biceps on his knee, watching the bottle with suspicion. With his back against the window now, the light cast his face in shadow but illuminated his edges, making him look like a fresco or a gilded saint. There remained less than a foot between them. If Kit hadn''t known better, he''d swear Tom was doing this on purpose, just to toy with him. He couldn''t think straight like this. "Do you know what this tastes like?" Tom said, addressing the bottle.
Kit did. He grinned. "Salvation?" Tom blinked. "Communion wine," he said. "Honestly." "God''s blood indeed," Kit said. He ducked the half-hearted blow Tom aimed at his head. "If Rector Harvey doesn''t notice, what''s the harm?" "You wouldn''t," Tom said.
"You''re lying." "I never." Kit pressed one hand to his chest in melodramatic offense. Tom raised his eyebrows. "All right," Kit said, ceding the point. "But I wouldn''t lie with you." The words had barely left his mouth before Kit wanted to die for having said them. What right did he have to consider himself a poet when he couldn''t even form a sentence to his best friend without courting disaster? His ungodly handsome best friend.
The one sitting six inches from him, backlit in gold. As Tom tilted his head, the shadows on his face shifted, leaving one plane in shadow and one bathed in yellow. "Wouldn''t you?" he asked. "Never took you for a man with scruples. I''d lie with you, if I had to." Kit flushed. He didn''t know if this was from embarrassment or something else, and he refused to interrogate the question. Tom''s expression was unreadable, as if he had never heard of such a thing as double entendre.
God and Christ. To be tortured by a preposition. "I ." Kit began, praying he''d find the end of the sentence once he started it. The door opened without a knock. Kit swore through a cloud of tobacco smoke and leapt off the bed, widening the distance between them from six inches to five feet. Tom lunged across the mattress and seized the bottle of wine. He''d stashed it between his back and the wall by the time the door opened fully, admitting a copper-haired young man who seemed taken aback by the violence of Kit''s glare.
Kit would have given anything not to have this particular student in his room at this moment, but he took a measured sort of hope in noting that Tom looked as annoyed by the interruption as he felt. "For God''s sake, Nick," Kit said. "Man invented doors for a reason." "Good to see you too, Kit," Nick said. He pushed past Kit and pulled out the room''s sole chair, straddling it backward. "Tom. I didn''t mean to interrupt." "And yet .
" Tom abandoned the attempt to hide the bottle and took an exasperated drink. Kit directed his eyes heavenward. Granted, the evening had been a disaster long before Nick Skeres showed up, but at least that disaster had potential. Leaving the door open--lest Nick forget the way back out--Kit perched on the desk and folded his legs beneath him. "I thought you were going to town," Tom said. "I will," Nick agreed. "First, Kit is lending me his essay on the Life of Pyrrhus." "I am?" If Kit had ever made such a promise, he had no memory of it, but Nick''s presumption wasn''t surprising.
The scholarship that had allowed Kit to attend Cambridge these past five years amounted to a sort of eternal probation. Fall behind and the college would rescind his funds, which would find him out on the street in a week. Nick, knowing this, read Kit''s diligence as a standing invitation to swipe passages from any given essay. "Yes," Nick said. He leaned his forearms on the back of the chair and rested his chin on them with an expectant air. "Now, come on. I have places to be." "Who is it this time?" Tom asked, without interest.
"Susanna? Joan?" "Eleanor." Nick winked, which only strengthened Kit''s urge to punch him. "So I''m in a hurry. Let me look at yours, and I''ll be gone in a minute." Tom and Kit exchanged a glance. If you really would lie with me, Kit''s side of the glance said, start now, because I intend to lie like you''ve never seen. Tom smiled, a half expression Nick didn''t notice, and nodded. "I haven''t started," Kit said to Nick with a shrug.
Nick stared. "This is the essay due in twelve hours, yes?" "Kit and I are a little behind," Tom said, picking up the lie. Kit nodded, with a stab at a self-deprecating smile. Self-deprecation was well out of his range, usually, but at a stretch he could fake it. "We were settling in for a night of Greek and--" "Wine and tobacco?" Nick frowned, looking from the bottle in Tom''s hand to the pipe in Kit''s. Kit''s liar''s code was predicated on a single rule: conviction. People believe a confident liar before they believe a nervous honest man. "Yes," he said, without missing a beat.
"Call it inspiration." Nick scowled. His chin slumped down farther until his arm obscured the bottom half of his face. "Don''t do this to me, Kit," he said, voice muffled from within his own elbow. "Just let me copy out the less-brilliant bits. I''ll pay you, if that''s what you want." Kit felt his shoulders tense without meaning them to. Money.
That was all gentlemen''s sons like Nick thought about. As if Kit''s mind could be whored out for two groats a night because his father made shoes. Cambridge life had changed him after all: not long ago, he''d have punched Nick for the insinuation. "I don''t want your money," Kit said. "If you deserved help, I''d give it." Tom, the tips of his ears reddening, had found something fascinating on the back of his left hand. Kit wanted to believe his discomfort came from sympathy, but it was more likely that Tom wanted a graceful way to exit before this sniping devolved into a genuine fight. "I--" Nick began.
Tom raised a hand, cutting him off. "Listen." Through the open door, rapid footfalls sounded against the stone beyond. Someone was coming. Someone with a purpose, judging by the pace, and someone close. For God''s sake. The smoke must have drifted through the open door. If Nick got them expelled, Kit''s ghost would haunt Nick''s across the centuries.
"Open the window," he said. Tom twisted around to fling open the window, while Nick snatched the bottle from him and dropped to his knees. He nearly vanished beneath the bed, re-emerging empty-handed seconds later. Kit leaned over and thrust the smoking end of his pipe into the washbasin. The scent of cheap tobacco languished on the air. He coughed, clearing smoke from his throat. "Kit," Tom said sharply. Paler than thirty seconds ago, he nodded over Kit''s shoulder.
Kit turned. Then he came to a quick and vibrant conclusion: either he was dreaming, or he was about to be expelled. A tall, gray-haired man in scholar''s robes now stood silhouetted in the doorway. His severe Roman face was expressionless beneath his precise beard, which retained more black than his hair. His impeccable posture gave the impression that his spinal column had been replaced with a lance. Kit pushed himself off the desk. "Master Norgate," he said. Whether s.