chapter 1 There lived a little boy who was misled . When they caught us down on Charles Street, they were all that I''d heard. They did not wave banners, flash amulets or secret signs. Still, I could feel their awful name advancing out of the lore. They were remarkable. They sported the Stetsons of Hollis, but with no gold. They were shadow and rangy, like they could three-piece you--jab, uppercut, jab--from a block away. They had no eyes.
They shrieked and jeered, urged themselves on, danced wildly, chanted Rock and Roll is here to stay. When Murphy Homes closed in on us, the moon ducked behind its black cloak and Fell''s Point dilettantes shuffled in boots. In those days, Baltimore was factional, segmented into crews who took their names from their local civic associations. Walbrook Junction ran everything, until they met North and Pulaski, who, craven and honorless, would punk you right in front your girl. It was their numbers that tipped me off--no one else rolled this deep. We were surrounded by six to eight, but up and down the street, packs of them took up different corners. I was spaced-out as usual, lost in the Caves of Chaos and the magic of Optimus Prime''s vanishing trailer. It took time for me to get clear.
Big Bill made them a block away, grew tense, but I did not understand, even after they touched my older brother with a right cross so awkward I thought it was a greeting. I didn''t catch on till his arms were pumping the wind. Bill was out. Murphy Homes turned to me. Above all the factions, Murphy Homes waved the scepter. The scale of their banditry made them mythical. Wherever they walked--Old Town, Shake & Bake, the harbor--they busted knees and melted faces. Across the land, the name rang out: Murphy Homes beat brothers with gas nozzles.
Murphy Homes split backs and poured in salt. Murphy Homes moved with one eye, flew out on bat wings, performed dark rites atop Druid Hill. I tried to follow Bill, but they cut me off. A goblin stepped out from the pack-- Hey, you going somewhere? --and stunned me with a straight right. About that time my Converse turned to cleats and I bolted, leaving dents and divots in the concrete. The streetlights flickered, waved as I broke ankles, blew by, and when the bandits reached to check me, I left only imagination and air. I doubled back to Lexington Market. There was no sign of Bill.
I reached for a pay phone. Dad, we got banked. Okay, son, find an adult. Stand next to an adult. I''m in front of Lexington Market. I lost Bill. Son, I''m on the way. I went to stand near a man about Dad''s age waiting at a bus stop, like age could shield me.
He looked over at me unfazed and then back across the streets at the growing fray of frenzied youth. I know that Dad and Ma saved me, pulled up in their silver Rabbit, sometime after I made the call; that Dad ran off into the swarming night to find his eldest son, and for the first and only time, I was afraid for him. I know that Bill''s mother, Linda, swooped down to the harbor and found Bill first, shuttled him back out to their crib in Jamestown. I know that Bill returned to Tioga days later, and when I told him how I''d dusted Murphy Homes, how I was on some Kid Flash level, he was incredulous-- Fool, they let you get away so they could chase me. We lived in a row house in the slope of Tioga Parkway in West Baltimore. There was a small kitchen, three bedrooms, and three bathrooms--but only one that anybody ever wanted to use. All of us slept upstairs. My folks in a modest master.
My two sisters, Kris and Kell, when back from Howard University, in an area where Dad also stored his books. There was a terrace out back, with a rotting wooden balcony. I almost died out there one day. Leaning against the crumbling wood I tumbled headlong, but caught myself on the back-door roof and came lucky feetfirst to the ground. My room was the smallest, and always checkered with scattered volumes of World Book, Childcraft, Dragonlance, and Narnia. I slept on bunk beds made from thick pine, shared the bottom with my baby brother, Menelik. Big Bill, as in all things, was up top. By mere months, he was my father''s first son, but he turned this minor advantage into heraldry.
He began sentences with "As the oldest son ." and sought to turn all his younger siblings into warriors. Big Bill was seldom scared. He had a bop that moved the crowd, and preempted beef. When bored, he''d entertain himself, cracking on your busted fade, acne, or your off-brand kicks. Bill: Ta-Nehisi, get outta here with those weak-ass NBAs. Know what that stands for? Next time buy Adidas. I was only ten, hobbled by preteen status and basic nature, while Big Bill was enthralled by the lights.
This was the summer of ''86. KRS-One laid siege to Queensbridge. I would stand in my bedroom, throwing up my hands, reciting the words of Todd Smith--"Walkin'' down the street, to the hard-core beat / While my JVC vibrates the concrete." Bill and my brother John spent all summer busing tables. Bill schemed on a fat rope, one that dangled from his neck like sin. Still, his money was young, and he could not stomach the months of layaway. So he returned from the mall with two mini-ziplock bags, each the size of a woman''s fist, each glimmering, like him, in the light. They held massive rings, one adorned with a golden kite, another spanning two fingers, molded into a dollar sign.
He flashed them before me, and I was caught by how the glowing metal made him swell inside his own skin. He was profiling, lost in all his glory, when Dad stepped to him. Dad: Son. They''re fake. Son, you''ve been had. Bill: You''re bugging. This is fourteen-karat. I paid cash money.
Dad: Son, son. Let''s have them smelted down and tested. If it''s ten karats or more, I will pay you for the rings. With interest. Bill agreed to my father''s proposition, convinced he was on the better end. He found a place to smelt the gold, do the math. And I don''t know what was worse--the negative results or Dad''s rueful chuckle and sermon. Afterward, Dad went over to Mondawmin and had Bill point out the merchants.
Then he walked to the glass counter, brandished the results, and spoke magic words. The magic words were "fraud," "Black community," and "State''s attorney." Bill never felt the same about gold again. My father was Conscious Man. He stood a solid six feet, was handsome, mostly serious, rarely angry. Weekdays, he scooted out at six and drove an hour to the Mecca, where he guarded the books and curated the history in the exalted hall of the Moorland-Spingarn Research Center. He was modest--brown slacks, pale yellow shirt, beige Clarks--and hair cut by his own hand. But at night, he barbecued tofu, steamed basmati, and thought of sedition.
He''d untuck his shirt and descend into the cellar, then comb through layers of ancient arcana. He collected out-of-print texts, obscure lectures, and self-published monographs by writers like J. A. Rogers, Dr. Ben, and Drusilla Dunjee Houston, great seers who returned Egypt to Africa and recorded our history, when all the world said we had none. These were words that they did not want us to see, the lost archives, secret collections, folders worn yellow by water and years. But Dad brought them back. He called this basement operation Black Classic Press, and for the Coates family there was no escape.
All of that house was bent by the mad dream of mass resurrection. But out on the block, the hoppers draped themselves in Starter, Diadora, and Lottoes. Then they''d roll onto corners and promptly clutch their nuts. Big Bill was there. He rolled through the streets in a brown puff leather, and captained a minor gang of Mondawmin kids. When bored, they brought the ruckus, snatching bus tickets and issuing beatdowns at random. They gave no reason. They published no manifestos.
This was how they got down. This was the ritual. They spent summers hunting for girls. The jennies would catwalk through Mondawmin in stonewash with wide red hands spray-painted across their fannies. They gilded their namesakes in triple bamboo earrings, and when they heard your call--hey, yo, shortie, come here--they did not look back to flip a bird. They did not crack smiles for anything. Their focus was on hair, mounds and mounds of hair, gelled, fried, french rolled, finger waved, extended into a dyed and glittered crown. They were of the moment.
They took one look at West Baltimore and understood that they were the best of it. So they walked like they were all that mattered, like they had no time. You had to be harder then. You could not bop through Park Heights like the second coming of Peanut King. Even the skating rinks demanded six deep. Teen pregnancy was the fashion. Husbands were outties. Fathers were ghosts.
Here''s the cast of my last name: My father has seven kids by four women. Some of us were born to best friends. Some of us were born in the same year. My elders come first, in chronology--Kelly, Kris, William Jr.--all born of my father''s first marriage to Linda. John was born to Patsy, Malik born to Sola. Then me and Menelik, the children of my mother, Cheryl. This is all a mess on paper, but it was all love to me, and formed my earliest and still-enduring definition of family.
Big Bill and John were both born in 1971. Dad was married and two daughters deep. He was a Vietnam veteran, and must have seemed to Linda to be a stand-up ordinary guy. But he lurched radical and joined the Black Panther Party, where he rose to lead the local chapter. He lost his union job. He went to work overtime for the impending revolution. His family went on relief. Dad missed the births of Kris and Kell, and was away again wh.