Chapter 1 1 THE FOREST IS SILENT, BUT I know I''m being hunted. Frost spreads across my blade, covering the sharpened sea-glass until all that''s left is a small patch of muted red. The flicker of a heartbeat. The flame of something desperate to survive. I rotate the dagger in my hand and push forward through the snow. The silver birch is heavy on this side of the forest. Not like the forests in Victory, with their spacious clearings and limited places to hide. I haven''t been within Caelan''s borders since the day I fled his palace.
But here there are a thousand places to disappear. A thousand ways to become invisible. And still they found me. The snowfall is fresh enough that my boots sink into the ground with each step, leaving a trail for my predator, but there''s nothing I can do about it. I''ve already been marked. I duck beneath a low branch, winding behind dormant trees and snow-covered vegetation. It isn''t much of a maze, but it''s enough to buy me a moment. And a moment is all I need.
I throw myself behind one of the larger trees and kick my weight off a protruding root to help lift me onto the lowest branch. I climb quickly, fingers ignoring the scratch of frozen bark, until I''m hidden in the tangle of thick branches with a view of the clearing up ahead. A hooded figure sits at the base of a tree, still as the frozen world around them. I tighten my grip on my dagger, eyes glued to the path, waiting for the other one. My hunter. Because the stars know they never travel alone. But the quiet is sinister. Not even a wraith could move so silently.
And as I watch the snowfall, it occurs to me that I''ve been so busy watching the ground, I forgot to watch the trees. An earthy growl rumbles nearby. Before I have a chance to turn around, an enormous weight throws itself against my body, tearing me from the branches. My right shoulder hits the earth with a crack, scattering my dagger out of reach. I roll to the side, push myself to my feet, and spin around to face my attacker. The beast shimmers like a galaxy of clouds and stars, its body distinctly snow leopard. But its ocean-blue eyes don''t belong to any animal--they''re human. I lunge for my weapon, but the wildcat is too quick.
It throws itself into a pounce, and we''re tumbling over rock and shrub and snow. I ignore the pain that shoots through my hip, focusing my grip around the beast''s neck as its razor-sharp canines snap uncomfortably close to my face. With a strained grunt, I focus on my consciousness, letting a thrum of power build in my palms before throwing it all toward the animal. The force of energy knocks the creature back across the snow, and its body tumbles to a stop. A snarl erupts from its flashing teeth as it slowly gets back on all fours. The snow leopard isn''t injured, but it''s definitely annoyed. I scramble quickly, snatching up my dagger as I run toward another tree. By the time I look over my shoulder, the starlit creature is already sailing through the air for a second pounce.
I shut my eyes, letting another thrum of energy absorb every inch of me, and surround myself with a veil. I become invisible. Throwing myself out of the way just in time, I hear the cat slam into the base of a tree--the place I left behind. The branches above give a shudder, and a pile of snow plummets onto the creature''s head. I reappear several feet away, blade pointed toward the cat with a snarl of my own. The snow leopard''s eyes morph into two bright lights. No longer human, but Dayling. Nearby, someone cackles.
"All this time training, and all you''ve managed to learn are a few parlor tricks? How disappointing." I turn around to find the figure who was beneath the tree. She stands several feet away, hands hovering beside the blades at her hips. Even beneath her hood, I can see the tug of a smirk. A challenge. My eyes don''t leave the pacing cat in front of me, even though my voice is meant for the woman. "I''ve also learned to never show all my cards in the first round." My fingers twitch toward the earth.
A lonesome branch sits in the snow, waiting. Waiting for me. The branch flexes and morphs, pixels bursting across its elongated surface, until it becomes a solid club. I snatch it from the ground in an instant, just as the snow leopard bares its fangs and leaps toward me--and I strike the animal over the back of the head. It falls to the ground, stunned. The woman''s smirk becomes a flash of teeth. She lets out a growl from beneath her hood, but I''m already swinging my blade toward her chest. She throws out an arm to block, and my dagger finds her armor.
It''s paper thin and more second skin than metal, but it absorbs the weight--and damage--of my attack. I stumble against her, and she swings her body around to reveal a pair of matching obsidian knives. She slashes left, then right, and I''m being pushed backward and toward the heady brambles. Unwilling to be cornered, I swing my blade upward with every bit of my strength. She uses one knife to block, and the other to pierce the skin between my ribs, barely missing my heart. It''s the kind of cut that''s intentional and meant to maim, not kill. Except no one really dies in Infinity. Not yet, anyway.
It takes everything in me not to cry out in pain, but I don''t. I''ve come too far to let a knife wound slow me down. I push my body against her, forcing her back. And as she''s busy retrieving her knife from my bone, I throw my head against hers with a furious crack, sending her stumbling toward an uprooted tree. She stills in midair, just before making contact, floating like an otherworldly being. And maybe she is. Maybe we all are. The blood gathering at my wound feels sticky and warm.
But the fight isn''t over. There will be time for healing later. I approach, pulling my daggered fist back for another swing, and she vanishes completely. Her laugh fills the cold forest, but I can''t see her. She sounds nowhere and everywhere, like an echo filling a canyon. My shoulders tense. I''m scanning the woods, heat rising in my cheeks, when the creature made of clouds and light crashes into me, smashing my skull against the nearby tree. I sink to the earth.
Winded, my gaze full of stars, I sense the world tilting behind the beast''s snarling head. And then--a sandpaper tongue scrapes against the side of my face. "You''re too soft on her, Nix," the girl says with another laugh, coming into view once more. "Need I remind you she tried to bludgeon you?" She pulls her hood down to reveal a face I''ve nearly memorized: pale skin sprinkled in freckles, ocean-blue eyes, and brown hair braided into three sections. A sigil of a herring and a thistle is embroidered on her collar. The symbol of the Salt Clan. Not that there''s much left of it. The snow leopard gives a purr against my ear and nips at my hair.
"Can you please call off your ferocious Dayling?" He huffs in response. "Don''t take it personally, Nix," Kasia says, giving a short whistle that has the cat immediately at her side. "Nami doesn''t like affection." I scowl, but I don''t say anything. I''d rather everyone think it''s hugs I don''t like, instead of the actual problem, which is that growing close to anyone just isn''t a possibility anymore. Not after what happened, and what it cost me. I let myself get close to someone--trusted them so much that I missed the warning signs--and, because of me, the Colony fell. I sheathe my knife, ignoring the pinch in my chest as Kasia scratches behind Nix''s ears.
"I thought you were patrolling the border today?" I remark. "I was. Then I saw you." I glance at Nix''s bright white eyes. There''s not a hint of Kasia left in them. "Do you think he feels it? When you take control of him?" The ache in my chest is constant, but when I think of Gil, and what Caelan did to him. That''s when the ache starts to burn . Kasia''s smile fades.
"Nix isn''t a consciousness. He''s made of memories. And holding on to memories is a very human thing to do." "You make it sound natural," I say. "But there''s no one else in the Borderlands who can use a Dayling like it''s a second body." Her blue eyes flicker with mischief. "What can I say? I''m one in a million." I fight the urge to laugh--the urge to feel like myself again.
The Nami whose biggest worries included pop quizzes and whether her best friend liked her the way she liked him. But human Nami died. And the things I wanted to hold on to, like believing people were capable of changing, and thinking kindness and understanding would always be more powerful than hate. There isn''t a place for that in Infinity. There isn''t a place for the old me. Annika told me fighting was the only way to survive--so I''m adapting. The person I am now? She will do whatever it takes. I blink, pushing back at the guilt even when it feels overwhelming.
"How far can you travel with Nix before your mind is pulled back?" Kasia watches him the way someone would watch a beloved pet. "There was a time before the First War when we''d travel the length of all Four Courts without a second thought." Her voice turns breathy. "But joining up with Nix is like being in a vessel. I can steer, but I can''t become him. I have no abilities beyond what Nix could d.