Chapter 1 WELCOME TO BEAUTY: This faux-colonial sign greets travelers entering the small seaside town of Beauty, Rhode Island. A popular summer resort, the historic harbor area connected to Narragansett Bay attracts well-to-do New England vacationers. (Personal photo/Josephine Saint-Martin) Chapter 1 February There''s a long-held belief in my family that all the Saint-Martin women are romantically cursed. Unlucky in love, doomed to end up miserable and alone. Supposedly, one of my early New England ancestors angered a neighbor--big surprise--who then paid the wise woman in the village to curse us. All of us. Generations upon generations. Like, None of you will ever get your happily ever after, so mote it be, enjoy the heartbreak.
I''m seventeen and have never had a boyfriend. Only had one true friend of any kind at all, really, and that was a long time ago. So I haven''t had a chance to personally test the curse in action. But even though my family is ridiculously superstitious, I know that everything bad that''s happened to us amounts to a bizarre series of unfortunate coincidences. Moving back here to the curse''s place of origin isn''t the end of the world, no matter what Mom may say. As I stand in front of Beauty''s city limit sign, taking the photo I always snap when we relocate to a new place, I ignore my mother''s irrational woe betides! about love and instead focus my lens on what this sign represents to me--my future. See, Mom and I move around a lot. And by "a lot," I mean seven moves in the last five years .
seven different cities up and down the East Coast. We''re pros. We can skip town faster than a mobster who got tipped off that the cops were on their way. One place is like another, and after a while, they all start to feel the same. Except Beauty. It''s the place where the all the important things have happened in my life. It''s where I was born--the birthplace of every Saint-Martin woman, all the way back to that silly love curse. It''s where Mom and I lived until I was twelve years old, and where I''ll finish high school next year, fingers crossed.
But most importantly, if things go as I hope they will, it''s also where my life is going to change. Monumentally. I have epic plans for the future, and they all start with this sign, right here. Everyone else may just see "Welcome to Beauty," but not me. I see: Hello, Josie Saint-Martin. Welcome to the Beginning of Your Life . "It''s freezing out here, shutterbug," Mom calls from the small moving truck parked behind me on the side of the highway. Our car, aka the Pink Panther, a 1980s cotton candy colored VW Beetle with too-many-thousand miles on the odometer, is hitched to the back.
"Haven''t you taken this one before? Forget tradition. It''s not going anywhere. Shoot it later." "Don''t rush me, woman," I call back, capping the lens of my vintage Nikon F3 camera before I settle it into the brown leather case that hangs around my neck. The City Limits photo is tradition, sure, but taking photos of signs is my artistic vision as a photographer. Some people like photographing landscapes or people or animals, but not me. I like billboards, snarky church signs, obnoxious neon diner signs, street signs riddled with bullet holes. They all tell a story.
They communicate so much with so few words. And Mom is right about one thing. Unlike people, signs are always there, twenty-four seven, waiting for you to take their picture. You don''t have to text them to ask if they''re coming home for dinner. You don''t have to be mad at yourself for being disappointed when they text back: go ahead, order takeout and eat without me. Signs are dependable. I climb back into the moving truck, and as I pull on my seat belt, some rare emotion flickers behind Mom''s eyes. Whatever the opposite of excited is, that''s what she looks right now.
Her anxiety over our move to Beauty started with Mildly Stressed, and on the drive here it escalated to High Anxiety, but now I do believe we''re up to Scared Shitless. And Winona Saint-Martin isn''t scared of anything, so that leads me to believe that something big is waiting for us here--something Mom has failed to tell me about. Again. Whatever it is, it must be bad . Worse than an old family story about doomed love. "Seriously, you''re starting to freak me out," I tell her. "Why are you so nervous about moving back here?" The reason we left when I was twelve is temporarily gone: the matriarch of the Saint-Martin family, Grandma Diedre. My mom''s mother.
They had a major falling out. Shouting. Tears. Police were called. Huge drama, and some of it was about me. They''ve since made up . sort of?? But whenever we come back to visit, it''s never for more than a day or two, and things are always strained. Our family is kind of messy.
Mom''s distracted and not listening to me, as usual. "Crap. Think that was one of your grandmother''s friends who just passed us," she tells me, eyes on the rearview mirror. "She''s probably on her phone right now, calling up half the town to alert them that Diedre''s harlot of a daughter is crossing the border." "You''re being paranoid. Grandma would never call you that." Probably. Fifty-fifty chance.
Mom snorts. "Oh, to be young. Be glad I shielded you from that old bat the past few years. Thank God for Mongolia." " Nepal. You know Grandma''s in Nepal." My grandmother and my mom''s older sister, Franny, joined the Peace Corps and left to teach English in Nepal last week. Just like that, Grandma temporarily gave up the independent bookshop that had been in our family for generations and handed over the keys to my mom--someone she doesn''t trust to post a letter in the mail, much less run an entire business.
And between you and me and this bargain-priced moving truck, my mom isn''t exactly the most reliable person in the world. Which was why Grandma and Aunt Franny running off to Nepal and leaving us as stewards of the family bookshop was a shock to all. Aunt Franny''s daughter, my nineteen-year-old cousin Evie, is currently minding the store and will be helping my mom run it while attending college and shacking up with us in my grandma''s above-shop apartment. "There''s no reason for you to be nervous. Grandma''s gone. Aunt Franny''s gone. You can make a fresh start here in Beauty--" "Dream on, baby." Mom rummages through her purse for a tube of lipstick labeled Ruby Kick.
Bright lipstick and pointed cat-eye glasses are the two things my mother wouldn''t be caught dead in public without. "You have no idea what we''re about to walk into. You were twelve years old when we left this wretched village of the damned. You don''t remember what it''s like. Beauty is a viper pit for people like us, Josie." "Then don''t give them a reason to gossip." "What''s that supposed to mean?" I clutch my camera case tightly. "You know what it means.
" Blame the stupid Saint-Martin love curse if you want, but my young-and-single mom never has long-term boyfriends. Never brings men home. But she swipes right and sneaks out to meet guys . a lot. I used to keep track of the numbers, but it got depressing. I mean, hey. We aren''t living in eleventh century feudal France: I know women can and should have whatever sex life they want. But it''s my mom, and I know she''s not happy.
Also, the lying. If it''s no big deal, why lie about it? If I end up with trust issues, this is why. Anyway, Mom did imply that she''d cool it with all the online hookups if we moved here. It''s not something we directly discussed, because we don''t talk about anything uncomfortable, so it wasn''t a firm promise. But she gave me a silent nod that said: I will not sleep with everyone in our small hometown, where people know us and our family, and gossip is currency . And I gave her a return nod that implied: Okay, cool, but mostly because I''m tired of you lying to me. I can tell by the way she''s biting a hangnail that I''ve hurt her feelings by bringing this up right now--the forbidden subject of the dates she doesn''t really have. And because I''m always forced to be the adult in the room, I opt to cool things down and switch subjects before we end up in a fight before we even get into town.
"Now you''ve got me all freaked out about vipers and pits and black holes," I say, trying for lighthearted. "Is it really going to be that bad here?" "Worse, shutterbug. So much worse. It''s not too late. We can turn back around and go right back to Thrifty Books in Pennsylvania." Mom has managed every chain bookstore on the East Coast, along with some amazing indies . and a couple of complete hellholes. The one she just quit in Pennsylvania was in the hellhole category.
"You emailed your district manager that ''Take This Job and Shove It'' song and walked out on your staff in the middle of your shift," I remind her. The corner of her mouth tilts up. "Okay, sure. Pennsylvania may technically be what people call a burned bridge. So we''ll drive straight through town and head down the coast to Connecticut instead. You liked Hartford, remember?" "Too many murders, too expensive. We lasted five months and got evicted." "We could go farther south.
Maryland?" "Or we could just stay here in Rhode Island and do what we planned. Live in Grandma''s apartment rent-free for a year and save up money for Florida. It''s your dream, remember? Palm trees and white, sandy beaches? No di.