PROLOGUE What is not in this book? Part I Finding my way to psychoanalysis 1. Delusion and stage acting 2. A nagging question 3. Papa! 4. A benevolent prediction 5. Otto Fenichel in a navy blue suit 6.How can one predict such things? 7. Streaking in New Jersey 8.
A class act 9. Don't mess with the master 10. Nipples 11. Self-castration and a man called John Buckman 12. The grand permission 13. Refusing to listen PART II Lessons I received from my teachers, supervisors, and mentors 14. The renowned analyst who traumatized me 15. Why not Broadway? 16.
Rare indeed 17. To pee or not to pee. Indian miniatures and Jackson Pollock 18. Indian miniatures and Jackson Pollock 19. What else can a man want? 20. Unlike Jacob Freud 21. Illusionless man 22. Let us give the boy a chance!.
23. A true gentleman 24. Ten percent goes a long way! 25. Naughty-1 26.Schizophrenia 27.The Brazilian panic 28. Amazing grace 29. A diligent follow-up 30.
From 'Liquid Steel' to 'Deep Throat' 31. A brutal transgression 32. Seven features of a proper apology 33. A missed opportunity 34. The man who laid everything on the line 35. Leonard Horowitz eats baklava PART III What my colleagues and peers taught me 36. An act of genuine empathy 37. The mourning pill 38.
Eleven hours in Oslo 39. From Stephen Ward to Ivan Ward 40. A gentleman from Virginia introduced me to Charles Darwin 41. On an escalator in Toronto 42. Dominic and Damien 43. Psychoanalysis and Idi Amin 44. My own narrowmindedness 45. Book review-1 46.
Hardly arrogant 47. Circumcision-1 48. Bangles 49. Un-associated 50. No, I did not sleep with Mark Moore and Ira Brenner 51. Frank Maleson made me lose a million dollars 52. Ralph Fishkin made me think 53. An editor's gift 54.
Circumcision-2 PART IV Clinical work turned out to be my 'royal road' to learning 55. Long before the Rain Man 56. A son by any other name 57. Silence and stillness 58. The man who shot a pregnant woman 59. Between yes and no 60. Learning to speak from animals 61. Please don't give me any money 62.
A now moment 63. Let us do it this Sunday 64. Naming the female genital 65. First patience, then act of faith 66. The boat never sinks 67. Curtailing the greed for interpretation 68. Milk and cookies 69. Ten most important lessons PART V The cultural difference between me and my professional surround became an adjunct instructor of mine 70.
Meeting Masud Khan 71. One friendly nudge, one award, and two books 72. Who pays? 73. From Evelyne Schwaber to Rabbi Lord Jonathan Sacks 74. Trans-fixed 75. 'You are not one of us!' 76. The altruistic core of 9/11 77. A dam across the Ganges 78.
'What else can you expect from these Muslims?' 79. My African American struggle 80. Culture, narcissism, or sorrow? 81. 'Humbug!' 82. A good reason to not have sex? PART VI Insights that arose from dealing with students, supervisees, and sundry audiences 83. Two flower vases 84. Can water cure cancer? 85. On being called a 'good man' 86.
Tennis as a disguise for psychoanalysis 87. Naughty-2 88. My French connection 89. Can a believer be a psychoanalyst? 90. Who do I belong to? 91. Is really old stuff any good? 92. Seventy-three plus twenty-five PART VII Writing, editing, and publishing 'saved' me 93. Writing aids 94.
Why I write 95. Writing as manic defense 96. Why I edit books 97. On being a midwife 98. A man of few words 99. Book Review-2 100. Writing poetry 101. One final thought EPILOGUE A few amazing coincidences Permissions Acknowledgments About the author The other ninety-nine books by the author Name index.