Chapter One Journal of Mlle. Zoe Cyprienne Lane Presented to Me Upon the Occasion of My Thirteenth Birthday Myers Cottage, Darkfrith York, England May 1, 1766 No rain. Cherry Cake with Breakfast. Spotted Scones and Cider after Supper. From Mother: The Journal. An Embroidered Tucker. From Uncle Anton: A Tome of Verse: Songs for Gentle Girls. From Cerise: An Ink and colored Portrait of my favorite rooster, Maximillian.
(From me to Cerise: A Polished Silver Nugget in the Shape of a Heart from the River Fier.) From Lord Rhys Sean Valentin Langford, second son of the Alpha (!): A bouquet of Pure Whyte Roses (the marchioness''s garden?). A Small Carving of Maximillian from Pine (bloodstain on the left wing? dirt?). A Woven Ring of his Hair (!!). Roses to Mother. Hair Ring to the dust bin. I rather like the carving. Journal June 13, 1766 No rain.
Quite hot. Lessons to-day in the village from the Dreaded Council for All Drakon Children. (I do think that at Thirteen Years of Age One ought not to be called a Child, and ought to be excused from these events, but the Council Begs to Differ.) I don''t know why they bother repeating the same shabby old rules year after year. We''ve heard them enough by now to choke on them: We must not Leave the Shire! We must not Speak of the Gifts! We must not Reveal our Secrets to the Others! We must Think Only of the Tribe! Rhys arrived late, as ever (no one even chided him. I suppose it must be lovely to be a Lord), and insisted upon squeezing into the seat next to mine. Then he kept pretending to tip his Inkpot upon my skirts when None were Looking. Vexing.
I don''t care what he said afterward, I don''t believe he would have stopped without my kick to his shin. I will Concede, however, that it was unfortunate the Ink spilled upon his breeches instead. Cerise claims She Saw it All. Grew very red and said that I was a shameless flirt. I told her to find a looking glass before casting names at me. Everyone knows she''s a Goose, no matter that she''s the elder by three minutes. I cannot fathom a person less Likely to be my Twin. Perhaps she is a changeling.
Journal June 19, 1766 No rain. Full moon, couldn''t sleep. Mother made me extinguish the lamps early. The smell of smoking oil simply fills my face; I can hardly breathe with it. When I opened my window the stars tried to siphon me up into the sky. Saw Uncle Anton flying, the marquess, Mr. Williams, Mr. Grady, at least five more.
We are so very lovely by moonlight. I do hope-I do I DO HOPE I shall fly too someday. I know that females no longer Turn into dragons, not since the marchioness, but I could be the first. I want it so much. I shall be pink and gold and silver. Those are my favorite colors. I shall have a mane of glorious silk. Rhys boasted he can already Turn.
Liar. Lord Rhys of the manor house surviving his first Turn? I certainly would have heard about that. June 21, 1766 Cloudy. With Rhys in the woods. Should not have gone there with him, but he said he would prove he could Turn. And he did. Thirteen is young. I suppose he''s a half year older than that but most in the Tribe Turn after they are sixteen at least.
I have time yet before I need worry. His eyes are very green. I wonder that I never noted it before. June 24, 1766 Still Cloudy. No rain. Rhys says the most foolish things. My hair is like Ivory. My voice is like Dusk.
My eyes are like Pitch. Pitch. Indeed. I told him that comparing my eyes to the color of tar was uncouth. He changed it to Obsidian and Tried to Kiss me again. I did not Let him. June 25, 1766 Wind Rising. Clouds Darkening.
He keeps trying to get me to Go Back to the Woods with him. I know it''s a Terrible Notion. But I want to. He tracked me to-day to the Lending Library, which very much needs to have its windows wiped. It was murky and we- I do not know why I feel these things around him, my stomach upset and my heart pounding all queer. It''s quite unpleasant, actually. He''s Graced me with a Pet name. No one''s ever done such a thing before.
"ZEE." As if my given name is too difficult to manage, all two syllables of it. Zee. His smile is so fetching. He never bothers with a hat or gloves so his skin has tanned with the sun. I did not go with him to the Woods. Cerise more and more waspish every day. She has at least Five beaux.
I can''t imagine why she would begrudge my One. June 26, 1766 Storm to the East. Not here Yet. I had a Dream Last Night that he came to my window as a dragon, dark glimmer and gold. I dreamt the dragon was tap-tapping on the glass, like raindrops, steady and soft, but when I woke, he was not there. Only those storm clouds, and not a drop of rain. The air feels so heavy I could tear at my hair. Addendum HE LOVES ME.
!!!!!! He wrote it on a slip of paper during Council Lessons. Pressed it into my hand as we were Leaving, along with a rose petal he had hidden in a pocket. Lord Rhys Langford of Chasen Manor Loves ME, of all the maidens of the shire. Me, the daughter of the seamstress. Me, who once put a clot of mud in his tea when he wouldn''t stop teasing me about besting him in Latin and Arithmetic. Me, and I''m not even Pretty. Cerise says my eyes are too strange and my lips are too big and I''ll certainly never Develop as she has. Me.
What a load of piffle. All that just to steal a kiss in the woods. It''s really rather pitiful, isn''t it? (I shall save the petal here, between these pages.) Addendum Addendum Cerise found the paper. I had dropped it by accident in the Hallway after Supper, and came upon her just as she was picking it up. I could hardly disguise from Whom it Came. Master Baird says Rhys''s penmanship flows like a Sultan''s robes in the wind, right off the edges of the page. Most Distinctive.
She was red again, even more red than her hair. She was trembling. I stood there and felt as if a great hammer had smashed upon my head. Cerise is in love with Rhys. Enormously shocking! But she is. She''s weeping in her room right now. I can hear her through the wall, though she''s trying to be quiet. August 1, 1766 I''ve thought on it a great deal.
I''ve thought and thought. Cerise and I have been at odds nearly our entire Lives. She is Comely while I am not; she is well liked while I am not. She is fashionable, and droll, and buxom, while I am . not. It''s a very great Wonder that we should have shared a womb at all. But I look at the portrait of Maximillian she made for our birthday, now hung above my bed. I look at the lines very carefully drawn, and how steady her hand was with the colors.
How she got every stripe in his feathers just right, and the red comb, and the cock of his head. I think about how long it must have taken her to complete it, especially since Maximillian despises Cerise and must have spent a great deal of his portrait time hiding behind the coop. She is my Twin. When she weeps I feel it to my bones. August 2, 1766 Cloudy. Warm. I told Rhys to leave me be. I told him I did not love him.
I gave him back his carving of Maximillian, just so he knew I was Sincere. August 4, 1766 Cloudy. Hot. He persists. August 19, 1766 Cloudy. Hot, hot, when will it rain? He leaves gifts for me on my sill. He follows me about. When I walk to the village, he is there.
When I walk to the downs, he is there. When I feed the chickens, he is there, and it is a Very Big Fuss because now that he can Turn, all the animals scatter in fear of their Lives. Mother Heard the Fuss and now she''s cross at both of us. The hens won''t settle if he''s near; they remain frightened for days. No eggs. I hardly think it''s fair I was punished for that. I''m trying to get rid of him. September 1, 1766 I had the same Dream last night.
Rain was softly falling, and he came to my window, tapping on the glass. Only this time when I awoke, it was so hot I was perspiring, and the rain was really, truly falling, drawing into silvery tears down the panes. And behind the tears was the dragon, watching me with glowing green eyes. No Dream. I walked to the window and looked back at him. His scales were slick and shining, an emerald so dark it was nearly black, and his talons and mane and wings were metallic gold. He looked from me to the brink of the eastern forest over his shoulder, then back at me. I understood him as clearly as if he had spoken the words.
Come with me. Come to the woods. Instead, I pulled the shutters across the window, latched them, and returned to bed. December 24, 1769 Snowing! It''s wonderful to have everyone around in one house, even if it is for just a few days. I love the scents of the holidays, cinnamon and roast goose and pine needles covered in ice. Mother''s cough has improved. Even Cerise laughed at the runny mess I made of the plum pudding. Saw Lord Rhys back from Eton today in the village, shopping, I think.
He was there with all thre.